Mommy • H.S

forty five ;;

Quietly, he watches her, his knuckles white. All the blood draining from his hand to his face, the clothes tightly placed between his calloused hands.

Soft whines, leave August's lips  her back aching. Her vision blurred, she leans up her breath hitching. Her body laying in fresh sheets, the nurses cleansed her, with soft towels.

"I brought you some clothes." Harry says softly, his eyes burning from the amount of crying he's done.

August is speechless, mostly confused to see her belly still swollen. Her breath starts to pick up, she can feel her heart pounding against her weak chest.

"Calm down, they'll sedate you again." Harry says calmly

"What happened? Did— they—"

"The babies are fine, for now. You were carrying three babies, and we lost one.. but we have these two and they have a chance." Harry says calmly

"What?" August asks

"The.. doctor said, that you have a problem with your uterus and that the baby we lost wasn't devolped correctly." Harry explains

"She says, these babies may be born deceased or even be born with disabilities." Harry nods

"Why are you so calm?" August asks

"Because, I'm tired, I cried for an hour straight and I think my eyes will pop off if I cry anymore." Harry shrugs

"Oh," August sighs, rubbing her belly. "how.. unfortunate."

"The nurse says, you need to shower. They're going to put you on an IV and give you vitamins." Harry nods

"Okay." August sighs, pushing down her hospital gown.

"Why, are you so calm?" Harry asks

"Because, I'm tired.. and honestly I don't have the energy to cry. I'm just, glad you're with me."

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Silently they sit, while August switches through the channels. Her face plain, her arm sore from the needles.

Harry presses a kiss to her cheek, then again until August melts into the soft touch of his lips.

"I love you." August whispers

"I love you." Harry mutter, pushing his face against hers.

"I'm.. really glad, you're here." August chokes

"It's gonna be okay, don't cry."

Months pass, tragically slow, August tending to doctors appointments every other weak. Happy to be back home, on her house, relaxed.

Although, Harry is at work, almost every night he's gone. She doesn't mind, not much at all.

Until, maybe one night, this night. He comes home, tired exhausted and August is there waiting for him ready to tell him the one thing she's been waiting to do for a while.

The door closes softly, a soft groan leaves his cracked lips.

"Oh, baby, you're awake." Harry smiles, happy to see her face. All he wants is to cuddle her .. and to finally relax.

"Come here, mami." Harry smiles, tiredly he walks to her sliding his hands over her waist.

"Harry," August sighs, pushing him away.

"Mm, what baby?" Harry sighs, rubbing his eyes.

"I, need you to go." August nods

"Go where?" He gives her a lopsided smile

"You need to leave, I need you to go." August sighs, patting his chest.

A frown etches across his face, wait a second..

"August.."

"No, I'm serious. I want you to go." August shrugs

"Babe, you're tired. You need to lay down." Harry sighs

"No! You need to leave, I'm trying to help you.. Harry you're too.. you're too young. I see, the way I'm just, I'm hurting you." August looks down

"No—"

"Don't tell me shit!" August yells shoving Harry away.

"You, go back home. Find a girl, who is young—"

"August—"

", and beautiful and able to produce babies and happy and and.. someone young. Go find someone else, I'm— I'm ruining you." August scoffs

"You're not, it's okay." Harry says softly

"No! Just fucking go! Look what I've done to you! You're so young Harry, you don't deserve this."

"I don't give a fuck! I love you!" Harry yells

"I don't love you. Now go." August says

"Don't— don't say that to me, please. Don't lie to me like that." Harry sobs

"I.. I'm not lying. I won't hurt you anymore, go back home. To your mother.. Niall." August sighs

"She hates me! I can't go back there, for what? For nothing! Please, please don't make me leave." Harry begs

"Lo—"

"I fucking love you! I can't— I can't, I need you, I love you. You're my love, you're my August. My baby, don't do this to me. You're hurting me?" Harry clutches his chest.

"I'm sorry.. I just, I want you to be happy." August cries

Harry pulls her close, "I am happy, I love you, you're here. Our babies are doing alright, I love you. Don't do that to me, please." Harry whispers on her lips.

"I'm sorry." August sniffles

"I'd die without you." Harry admits

"I'd die without you." He repeats

- THE END -