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Chapter 18: Arguments

"Brooke P.O.V": Right now just isnt the right time for Keem to talk to me like for real. Why? He been acting different and i have noticed it. I turned on pandora and the song "I Hate You I Love You by Gnash ft Olivia O'Brien" began playing. You know i had to sing along.

Brooke: Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

Next thing i knew, Keem turned off pandora and it was the moment he knew he fucked up.

Brooke: Aight Keem whats your problem because one minute your lovey dovey then your a dick.
Keem: Dont worry about it.
Brooke: No i need to worry about it.
Keem: why?
Brooke: *takes deep breath* You're either going to speak about it or leave me wondering.
Keem: I'll leave you wondering.
Brooke: really? *looks at Keem crazy* And this is why i have trouble understanding you because you don't speak about stuff but at the end is it really worth it?
Keem: What you mean?
Brooke: leaving me wondering.
Keem: man bye *begins walking away*
Brooke: *grabs Keem by arm* I wonder sometimes why is it like this. Its not fair to be honest.
Keem: Well you not gonna force me to talk.
Brooke: *hold stomach* okay and i respect that but I'm tired of being left in the dark when it comes to you.
Keem: i dont know what you want me to do.
Brooke: You seriously not gonna talk to me about anything?
Keem: not everything.
Brooke: So everything is exactly how it was and now that im actually tired of being left in the dark about you, you seriously don't wanna talk about whatever you going through. To be honest i dont like it at all and your making me doubt if i even know the real you.
Keem: What can you even do huh? What would me telling you useless shit lead to?
Brooke: *feels pain in stomach so sits down* Maybe getting some of it off your chest, maybe be here for your ass. But you know what if you don't wanna tell me shit it's in you. But if anything happens to you I'll be sure to say i don't know because he didn't tell me anything. You of all people i would think would open up to me. I don't use shit against anyone no matter how mad i get but you can go ahead and keep it to yourself if you really want to.
Keem: Will do.
Brooke: Well tell me this, your instagram post, is it true? Cause if so I'll go ahead and let you do you.
Keem: *chuckles* Man it's whatever you think.
Brooke: Do you even care? I'm being so serious right now since it's a joke to you.
Keem: Do you think i do?
Brooke: it's not what i think anymore. Tell me or i go.
Keem: Seems like you wanna go. I'm not holding you here.
Brooke: i don't want to go but you're not being fair.

I just looked at Keem while he aint say shit.

Brooke: so no response now.
Keem: How am i not fair?
Brooke: you don't tell me anything and i'm in the dark about you.
Keem: What do you want to know?
Brooke: i shouldnt have to ask you should willingly tell me.
Keem: What do you want to know?
Brooke: what do you want to tell?
Keem: Bruh bye i gave yo ass a chance.

Keem walked out and slammed the door shut. I can't believe him right now. Are you fucking serious right now? I walked to the bedroom to grab my phone and keys. Why? Its time for me to head to Babii house cause i really need a shoulder to cry on. I locked up the house and got in my car. Off to Babii house i go.