Until The Very End

Chapter 20

Blake's POV

I can't believe what I just heard.

I'm totally speechless. I always thought about myself and never about her. I never knew that this also affected her so much.

I'm really an asshole. I want to kill myself right now.

How could I treat her like that?!

Now that she told me everything, I also found out that she loves me. I mean, after everything I did to her...she still loves me. But why me? I've been a jerk since I found out she was my childhood friend.

I thought I will always hate her, that nothing would ever change that. However, she could and she did.

Now I'm standing here, hugging her and I even confessed to her.

"B-Blake...what did you just say?" I heard her voice trembling.

I sighed before I spoke up.

"I'm sorry. I-I only thought about myself and never about you. I didn't know that you are also hurt..." I said.

Damn I'm always so whipped around her.

She turned around so that she was facing me. Her eyes were red and puffy like her nose and her cheeks were stained with dried tears. I felt my chest squeezing as I looked at her. She looked so sad and broken.

"It's not your fault. It's mine. If I..." she couldn't finish her sentence because tears started to stream out of her eyes.

I couldn't help but only hug her as she cried on my shoulder...well more on my chest.

"Shhh...it's okay. We just that we are both fault at this." I said.

I pulled away and cupped her face with my hands wiping the tears away.

"Let's just forget everything that happened. I don't want to lose you again. I love you too much..." I said and kissed her forehead.

She wrapped her hands around me and buried her face into my chest.

"I love you too..." I heard her say in a low voice.

Oh gosh finally...

Elizabeth's POV

We stood there hugging each other in silence. I already calmed down and I'm only enjoying the moment. I'm still a bit fuzzy. Is this really real? I mean, did Blake really love me? If this is only a dream then please I don't want to wake up.

I would have like to stay like this but he still has a fever...

"Blake?"

"Hmm?"

"You have to go back to bed. You have to rest because tomorrow we have school." I said and pulled away.

"Let's skip one day. It won't hurt and beside you need to do some bad things. Always being the good girl is only boring." he said and playfully rolled his eyes.

I hit his chest playfully and smiled.

"I'm not always a good girl." I said and pouted.

"Oh really? What did you do?"

"I...I...Argh! I have never done something like that, okay?! Are you satisfied?" I said in frustration.

"See? Sooo...let's skip?" he asked with puppy eyes.

"No." I said and smirked.

"What?! Why?! Come on! No one will find out!" he said.

"Well maybe next time and now" I pointed to his bed "go and rest. I will be sleeping in the guest room because there is no way in hell I'm going home at 11 p.m." I said and shivered at the memories I had last time when I was outside too late.

I was about to walk out when he grabbed my wrist stopping me again.

"Nop. You're gonna sleep here with me." he stated before pulling towards his bed.

Before I could say anything else I was already laying in his bed with him beside me covering us with his warm blanket. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him. I could feel his body warmth and could his heart beat which let me relax a bit.

I couldn't help but smile. The last time I slept with Blake was when we were younger. The night before I left for Washington D.C.

No words could describe my happiness right now. This is more than I expected. I only wish that this last forever but I know that it won't. I felt my smile fall and my chest squeezing. Even though I said I won't get close to anyone...I still did. But I can't help it.

I've tried but I just can't. I love Blake too much for it and now I just spend as much time with him as I can.

I still didn't tell him about...well my heart disease...it's kinda hard right now. I just have the feeling that it's not the right time. I only don't know when it is...But if I tell him about it someday he might leave me because I won't stay with him for a long time or something like that and that scares me the most. I also don't want to hurt him with it.

Sure, someday I have to tell him or her will find it out but not now. Not tomorrow and not next week but I'm sure it will be soon.

Now I just need him here with me and that's the only thing what's important right now and nothing else.

"What's wrong, Lizy?" he asked suddenly sounding a bit concerned.

"Ah? Oh...ehm sorry I was thinking about some things?" I said.

"Mind sharing it with your handsome and sexy boyfriend?" he asked and smirked.

I playfully rolled my eyes and smiled at him.

Gosh, he's so damn cute...

"Who? The only one I see is a lazy and sick boyfriend." I teased.

"But you love this lazy and sick boyfriend of yours."

"Hmm I would rather prefer a healthy one instead of a sick one. But oh well I still love you." I said with a smile.

"Well tomorrow I am back to my normal self so prepare yourself."

"Whatever. Now good night, Blakey-poo." I said with a smirk.

"Oh no you didn't..."

"Yes, I did."

"Oh now we're playing it like this? Okay. I can do that too, El."

"Oh come one that's not fair! El sounds more like a boys name. Wait. That's not even a name!!" I pouted.

"Than stop calling me 'Blaky-poo' because that sounds like I'm pooping." he said amused while I only laughed.

"Okay, I will find a new one." I said.

"Good! Now good night. Sleep well and dream about me." Blake whispered in my ear before slowly drifted to sleep.

"Good night..." I said sleepy and fell asleep.