I closed my eyes and thought of how hard it was going to be. Confessing your feelings isn't actually the easiest thing to do.But when you actually gut up and do it... Well, you just wait for this classic 'I have been loving you too, for so long' and then the oh so sweet happily ever after .However, I had to be the one who would make the exception.I have been battling with my feelings for so long and when I decided that this,this would be the perfect time to tell her,she just says that she wants to be "just friends".Just friends...And here we are "just friends",sitting next to each other.Near yet so far.And you have big news prepared.For your "just friend" and the rest of our small group.But you know what,Mariette.Just friends don't steal secret glances of the other.Just friends don't get jealous when the other one talks about someone else.Just friends don't get butterflies.Just friends are not me and you.But here you are prooving me wrong like you always do,Mariette...
"Antoine and I are dating."
These 5 words crushed the silence that was wrapping her black dress around us.I turned my attention towards Kevin.He was the only one,besides Mariette of course,that knew about this.He gave me an uncertain glare as Antoine was beaming like a Christmas Tree on December 25th.He wrapped his fingers around Mariette's and started kissing her knuckles.This whole view made me sick.I quickly got up and went outside in the patio to get some fresh air.This didn't help me whatsoever.These tight and heavy chains were wrapping around every inch of me,tighter and tighter every second that passed by.Out of all the girls in the planet,it should have been her.Freaking her.The girl of my best friend.
"Carrasco,wanna talk?"I heard Kevin from behind."I covered you up in there."he said as he set next to me in the stairs."You know what,Kevin?She is just ungrateful.I gave her 10$,while Antoine 20$.She thought that he was better just because he gave her more.The only thing she didn't know is that he had 200$ and I had 10$."Kevin looked at me weirdly."You both have almost the same amount of money,what are you talking about Carrasco?".Kevin,you are unbelievable sometimes.
"It's not about the money Kevin.It is about what I freaking said.I poured my whole soul out there,but Antoine was smart.He said exactly what he needed to say.And that was enough.Because he still has a lot more to say.I said everything already."Kevin sighed as he got up."You really love her,don't you?"
"More than you can imagine."
"Hey,Yannick.Are you okay?"She asked.Why was she here?"Yep.Antoine probably wants you.Go inside."I said and just turned my attention back to the sea that was turning cerulean,even though it was almost midnight."I won't leave unless we are good again.You are my best friend.I don't want to lose that."Mariette said."Being best friends with someone who loves every piece of you -sooner or later-leads to not talking anymore.And it's inevitable."I said as I felt her sitting next to me,her cherry cologne running through my nostrils and driving me insane."We will break that rule.We can be an exception.That exception."She answered as she put her soft hand on my shoulder.I didn't have anything to lose."Deal."I said.She flashed the biggest smile of her and gave me a final hug before she went inside.
Little did she know that we were actually falling apart.And it was,as I said,inevitable.
