I love you //brolby

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Colby's POV

I sat in my room scrolling through twitter when I get a message from brennen It was just about filming for his vlog or something I write back okay and sigh, everytime now a days we always have to act all gay and pretend to kiss or whatever. Well he has to act gay I'm the actual gay one here but nobody knows. I hate this shit because I actually love him but he will never love me the way I want him too he's straight he's always talking about how he wants a girlfriend, every-time we go to kiss on camera inside i know it won't happen but I want it too for some-reason my heart always starts racing and my palms sweat even though I know it won't happen but just because I know it won't happen doesn't mean my heart doesn't break when he pulls away and says some shit like "no we aren't gay you thought" no brennen your not gay. I snap out of my trance when I hear knocking at my door I know it's brennen I rub my eyes because I haven't blickend in like 15 minutes but I guess I began crying during this so I quickly whip away my tears. Hopefully we won't notice. I open my door and brennen walks in with his camera at his side thank god he isn't already filming "hey bro what's up" he says full of energy as normal "nothing really" I say quite because I'm just not feeling it, i look up at him his smile drops "Colby you alright?" He says softly I force a smile "fine, I'm fine" I say trying to make it sound as real as possible. I know he didn't believe me but he didn't ask anymore questions "so I wanted to do a "we finally kiss" video for clickbait so can we get that thumbnail real fast?" I sigh my heart broke once again clickbait that word I hate it so much now "sure bro" I say standing up from my bed he turns the camera on and we make some stupid gay comment and that's where my heart starts racing and my palms become sweaty. We look at each other in the eye and slowly move forward and right before it would be a real kiss we stop and just stay there for a second "okay got it thanks" he says happily but focused on whatever he's doing. You know that feeling, when you know you're gonna cry and you can feel it so obviously but you're eyes haven't started watering yet. Yeah that's me right now. "B-brennen I'll b-be back in a m-minute" I stuttered out then ran out and Into the bathroom, I shut the door and slid down it, i brought my knees to my chest and hugged myself letting tears roll down my cheeks. I sat there for at least 10 minutes before I hear brennen knock on the door asking if I was okay, "o-oh I-I'm o-okay" i stuttered, I know he won't believe me I mean it sounded like I was crying with the stuttering and what not " Colby open the door you are crying I can tell" he says worried I sigh "no brennen, just go away" i say crying more because I didn't want him to leave but I couldn't let brennen see him like this "Colby you and I both know damn well I'm not leaving until you open the door" he says harshly like he was annoyed but still worried. I'm not letting him in I won't break he can't see my like this if he did that'd lower my chances even though I really don't have a chance in the first place "brennen fucking leave you will only make things worst I'm sorry but you aren't getting. In." I say annoyed tears they keep coming they won't stop "please Colby I'm sorry whatever I did just let me in I swear I won't be upset or anything" he says sweetly and soft I've never heard his voice so soft "fine" I say at whisper tone. I stand up and open the door he just stares at me you can see sadness in his eyes. Not only was my face covered in tears but my chest was also soaked he walks towards me and grabs my shoulder softly "Colby why are you crying so much did something happen, did I do something? Please just tell me" he says looking into my watery eyes "brennen it's my problem, it can't be fixed and if i told you what it was you'd hate me" I say fighting back tears because I wanna be done crying, I look at him in the eyes and he looks so sad about this but I can't tell him that's the one things that I know I won't let him get out of me "Colby I'll never hate you I love you bro"   "Bro" that just made it worst because everyone knows bro is just friend zoned and I hate being friend zoned but I don't know what I expected "brennen I think you should leave" I say looking at my toes "but col-" I cut him off raising my voice a little because I just can't right now "brennen leave!!" He backs up and looks like he's gonna cry? Maybe not though "okay bye Colby" he says then goes down stairs I hear the front door shut. My heart broke I to a thousand pieces I may have just pushed away the one I love the most. I decided to just to to bed as it was kinda late

Alright so this story is gonna be more serious and sadder but I really hope you enjoy it I think I will anyway love you guys byyyee