I love you //brolby

✖️three✖️

Colby's POV

It's been two days... two days sense I've talked to brennen or anyone for that matter I ignore everyone I don't leave my room unless I need to use the bathroom I barely eat, hate is all I feel for myself I just want to be normal I hate that I love someone who has no idea and doesn't love me back why can't I just like girls why was I made like this. Why was a I made in general, fuck I just wanted to die at that moment I fall back onto my bed and just stare at my ceiling, barely anyone has came to check on me... sam did once but didn't really care it was forced he's been with kat I hate her Corey and devyn have been busy I love them both and Elton he's always busy and Arron is normally sleeping, I really don't know if anyone has texted or called me. My phone died the night brennen and I talked and I haven't plugged it back in I don't want to, I'm sure my fans are concerned I hate leaving them. Sometimes I feel like my fans are the only people who actually care whether I live or die, but I can't do it right now. After a while of no sound I decided to get something to drink I walk out of my room, sure enough everyone is gone I walk down stairs into the kitchen getting a drink and stand there for a second missing everyone but I can't bother them right now I begin to walk to the stairs when I hear the front door start opening, fuck. I just stand there when they walk in I see it's sam and Elton I know they will want to talk I just sit down accepting my fait once they walk past the kitchen they look at me, they look like they've seen a ghost, do I look that bad? "C-Colby" I hear sam say "that's me" I say in. Raspy deep voice as I haven't used it much obvious sadness in my voice "Colby where have our been why are you always in your room you never answer you texts we are so worried" sam says walking I hug me but I flinch and reject his hug he walks backwards confused "Colby please talk" he begs Elton hasn't said anything he's just looking at waiting for me to answer sams question "I-I can't it's not I mean" I sigh not being able to speak and just look down "Colby what's wrong we are scared " I hear Elton finally speak "I can't okay I'm sorry" I say getting up and running to my room tears pour down my face I fall to the floor bring my legs to my chest hugging myself

Just be fucking normal you fuck up

I can't I'm sorry

Worthless just worthless they don't really care

I know I know

I just want my mind to shut up but I know it's true I'm worthless they don't care about it they were just trying to be nice, after about 5 minutes I hear a knock at my door "let me it" my hear sank my breath quickened its brennen why the fuck is he here "b-brennen?" I say softly through the door "yes Colby that's me" I don't want to see him but all my emotions were getting the best of me because I can't change the fact that I love him, I stand up I didn't even wipe my tears I open the door he runs and hugs me I hugged him back i love this I cried into his neck I didn't wanna let go but he pulled back his eyes were red like he's been crying "Colby what he hell why weren't you answering my calls or texts I was so worried then sam called me and told me I needed to come because something was wrong with you" he says looking me in the eyes "b-brennen I-I'm sorry" he pulls me into another hug "it's okay Colby" he pulls away and sits us on the bed " colby what's wrong they said you haven't left your room they haven't seen you eat and it shows when I hugged you I could feel your ribs please Colby tell me I will never hate you no matter what" he says his eyes fill with tears "I can't" I whispered looking down and not at him, he sighs "I would never make you say anything you don't want to but when our ready please I'm worried about you and please please text me turn your phone on because I miss you Colby" I nod my head "i l-" I cut myself off before I said anymore "I will brennen but can I just get some time to myself?" I say looking up at him and weekly smile "of course " he says standing up and hugging me tightly I pull back this time and walk him to my door "I'll walk you out" I say softly we walk down stairs and to the front door "I'll talk to you later right Colby?" He says raising a eyebrow I nod and he leaves I shut the door and slide down it everyone is upstairs so I thought this would be okay I close my eyes and cover my face with my hands crying quietly until I feel arms around me I look up its sam "o-oh I'm s-sorry I-I'll go back t-to my r-room" I say a shuddering mess because sam saw . I stand up getting ready to walk away when he grabs my arm pulling me down "Colby tell me what happening with you I'm your best friend I won't tell anyone I swear on everything" he says with concern written all over his face. I trusted him so I'm gonna tell him he is my best friend like he said "promise you won't tell" I say looking at him "I swear"he says in response, I take a deep breath I look at the ground and before I even thinking about anything I blurt out "sam I'm gay" I look at him he seems shocked "Colby I had no idea I'm so proud of you for being able to do this and tell me but why is that making you so sad?" I look back down and close my eyes "because....I love brennen" I say softly he gasped "pleAse don't tell him" I beg "I won't Colby I swear" I sigh in relief, it feels good to tell someone but that doesn't really help my problem. Sam hugs me and I hug him back "I'm gonna go take a nap" I say to sam he nods
And I go up stairs and take my much needed nap.

Alrighty boys and girls and everything else that was a lil less shit then the other one