Beanie Girl

Chapter 34

Chapter 34: Under The Cold Waters

[EXELLOR ONEIRO'S POV]

“Are you sure... this is necessary now?”

“If you're willing to know me, then I think it is. And I think it's time... but I hope this won't break your trust.”

I don't know if I'll treat this as an illusion. Oftentimes, they are, or they aren't. But this time, no, I can definitely feel it. Trevor balanced fantasy and reality in front of my eyes. But now, he seeks reality. He seeks the truth. The truth that he deserves to know.

I have hidden myself from this things. But now, he wants me to show. He trusts me too much.

And what I am feeling right now with him, I'm not even sure if it's... love already.

Could be the fact that I was amazed 'cause he made me like this, or I have a crush on him. Yes, I really do. But... the only thing I know is... I'm more afraid that he'll get hurt because of me.

Before anything else, I did my old routine, while I prepared myself for a promise that surely I won't regret. He sat beside me, breathing the same air as me. The grasslands where I'm sitting, is where he's sitting too.

“Seryoso ka ba sa sinabi mo kagabi sa dat–dinner kagabi?” 

“Kailan pa ako nag-biro?”

“Oh umm, sorry. Request ko na sana na mag-tagalog ka na lang pag-naguusap tayo.”

I raised a brow, “Why?”

“It suits you. Bagay sa'yo nagtatagalog.”

“I was just used to speaking English, but I guess there's no harm in speaking Tagalog. I've done that once when I was with you.”

He smiled... “Hey... buti na lang rin hindi ka dry ngayon ah?” he joked.

“Marami akong naiisip ngayon at halos hindi ko na iyon mabilang, kaya para panatilihing maayos ang sarili ko, ay kinailangan kong magsalita.”

He nodded, and got hold of his backpack to get something from it. I saw him took a black, square box. Setting the bag aside, I saw his hand near to my lap. He raised both of his brows, urging me to take it. A gift for me?

“Para saan yang regalo?”

“N-Nakalimutan kong bigay sa'yo.. Buksan mo na.” he said, smiling.

I slowly removed the lid cover of the box, inside lies a silver bracelet, around it was silver stars dangling around it. My eyes went back to him, while he smiled awkwardly, trying to cover up some kind of embarrassment or shyness.

He shouldn't be shy nor embarrased.

“D-Do y-you like it?”

“... I do. I really liked stars in the sky.”

Looking again at the bracelet, it really reminded me of the stars in the sky, even if the shape of the stars from the bracelet probably looked like the ones drawn by children. They were sparkling from the sunlight, but reflected the orange flare of the sky. It complimented the current mood of the fields. 

Silent. Peaceful. Clean. Colorful. I feel like smiling.

“Saan... tali ko sa kamay mo.” he volunteered, carefully picking up the bracelet from the box, and gently placing it around my wrist. The small contacts of his skin to mine sends bolts of electricity throughout my system. It tickled my stomach just enough to feel a little giddy.

“Pansin ko nga,na ang hilig mo sa bituin. Bakit naman?”

Long ago, I had that asked. Why do I like them? Everytime I peek to my window on my bedroom, I would focus on the sky, seeing if there are any stars present in the sky. I like them in general. They are bright. Small yet large. Lights up the dark sky. They are fascinating things to look at.