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Chapter 25

At Lightwood house

"Maryse..MARYSE!" Robert raised his voice at his wife before he realized she already walked in to their room placing the clean clothes on the bed. "Help me with this would you." He held up his tie and Maryse helped fix it to a knot. "Going somewhere tonight?" She asked even though she knew deep down in her heart Robert might go out with some 20 year old girl to please his desire. "Yeah, dinner with friend. I'll be back late, don't wait up on me." Robert said when Maryse was done with his ties. "Would it hurt if you skip the night and stay with me. We could have dinner and watched movies like we used to." Maryse tried, she tried to hold on to her broken relationship with her husband. "What's with you? I don't have time for this." Robert grabbed his keys and was about to leave the room. "I'm glad Alec left this house." Maryse held her body and sat on the bed with tears in her eyes. "What did you said?" Robert asked pretending he didn't hear what she said earlier. "you heard me. Don't act stupid Robert." She glared at his face looking angry. "Don't fucking said that name in front of me anymore. That boy is dead to me you hear?" He grabbed his wife's arms and made sure she saw his eyes while he sad those words. "Alec is my son, our son. He might be dead to you but he is alive and well to me. I wish nothing more but his happiness. I want my grandchildren to know that they have a family, and if it meant you out of their lives so be it." Maryse never knew where did she found her strength but she knew that somehow Alec has taught her much more than just being their mum. Robert get more angrier and surprised on how his wife was talking to him that way. "Don't you used that tone on me. I'm your fucking husband." Maryse couldn't help but laughed at hearing him said that, making Robert crooked his eyebrow confused, he thought Maryse has lost her mind. "Husband? What kind of husband who fucked bitches while keeping his wife at home? What kind of husbands who kept a mother away from her own son? What kind of a husband are you? You are nothing but a devil who wanted things your own way and you made me lost a son you wont let me lose another!" She made her point not worrying what would happened to her. She stormed out from the room and hide herself in the bathroom. She heard how Robert was letting out his anger and slammed the door. She cried herself in the bathroom and for once she glad her kids wasn't at home when she had the fight.

Magnus woke up that middle of the night when he felt someone pushing his body. When he opened his eyes he can hear voices. Then he realized Alec is having a nightmare. He squirmed in his sleeps and mumbled a few words. He slept on his right side with his back facing Magnus. Magnus got up and rested on his elbow with one hand on Alec's arm. "Alexander, hey wake up. Sweetie wake up." He kept on shaking Alec's body to wake him up but he failed and he could hear Alec mumble someone's name and Magnus knows that name by hard. "M-M-Max, please. Don't leave me, please." It broke Magnus heart when he saw Alec like this. He got up and he turned Alec on his back but he still squirming. He keep on fighting Magnus' arm and accidentally slapped him. Magnus was getting worried now since Alec was really rough on himself. He scared that Alec will hurt himself or the babies. Magnus kept shaking Alec 's body waking him up. Alec was turning his head side to side and pushing his hand on Magnus' body violently. His legs were kicking and Magnus kept on calling his name. "Alexander! Stop this, wake up babe, you're dreaming." Alec suddenly opened his eyes and sat up knocking his head on Magnus' causing them both groaned in pain. Alec was breathing heavily and Magnus rubbed his forehead in pain and then went to hug his Alexander. He wrapped his arms on Alec's body calming him down since he breathed out so deep and heavy. "Max, Max." That was the only thing he manage out from his mouth. Magnus heard how Alec cried out. He hugged him tight and rocking their body front and back. He kissed Alec's temple and hushing in his ears. He brought Alec back to the bed and let him lied on his chest. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He keep on repeating the words but Magnus couldn't help feeling that Alec was not talking to him but to Max. "You wanna talk about it?" Alec shake his head and let his tears flow like flood making Magnus shirt wet. Magnus held Alec the whole night in his arm.

Alec woke up that morning feeling pain in his head. He woke up realizing his on Magnus' chest. He still asleep so Alec woke up slowly not wanting to wake him up. He got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to relieve himself. Later after he brushed his teeth and washed his face, he went to the kitchen and made something for breakfast. He break some eggs into the bowl and stirred it, then he cut few tomatoes and mix them together. His body might be in the kitchen but his mind isn't. Cause he didn't even realized Magnus already woke up and leaned against the wall staring at his pregnant fiancee. He was so distracted and his face frowned cause he couldn't stop thinking about his dreams. He was so lost in his thoughts that he accidentally cut himself while cutting the onions. "Ahh, shit!" He cursed and ran to the sink running his finger through the running water. Magnus saw what happened and ran to his side. "Alexander, you're okay?" He tried to touch his hand but Alec pushed him away, "I'm fine." Then he went and grabbed the towel to wrapped the wound. "Are you okay? Let me take a look." He asked again even though in every way Alec is not. "I'm fine, how many times should I told you." He stomped his feet to their bedroom leaving Magnus wondered all alone in the kitchen. He closed to stove and removed the pan from it. He walked into the bedroom seeing Alec sat on the bed looking towards the window holding his bleeding finger in the towel. The towel is light peach so he could see how Alec is bleeding through it. He went to the bathroom and grabbed the first aid kit. He kneeled before Alec and held his hand. They didn't look into each other and Magnus knows Alec is crying cause he could see teardrops on Alecs hand. "I'm sorry I yelled at you. I didn't mean too." Magnus didn't answer and he dressed Alec's wound then covered it up nicely with a white plaster. When he done tending Alec's wound, he went to the bathroom, kept the things back and washed the cloth that has blood stained on it. Later he heard how Alec's sobbing through his pillow. He saw Alec lied on bed by his side when he came out from the bathroom. He climbed on bed and get closer to Alec. He turned Alec to his side and he snuggled into Magnus' chest. He cried again on Magnus chest and he couldn't stop. "Talk to me please." Magnus begged Alec to tell him cause he couldn't hold his heart seeing Alec like this anymore. "I saw him. I saw Max. Magnus he's bleeding from his head, his chest, his stomach. He was right in front of me and I couldn't hold him. Its all my fault. I should been there, I would have save him. He would have been alive if it wasn't for me. I should be dead instead of him. He didn't get to grow up and had his first kiss. He didn't get to lives his full lives. I'm the one who should be dead not him, I'm nothing but a worthless person. My life isn't as important as he is. I wished I could turned back the time. I wished I could make things better." The moment when Alec finished his words Magnus sat up on the bed and held Alec away from him. "Do you really meant it? Do you really think you were that worthless? Then what am I Alec? Am I just a wall for you to release all your problems? What about those?" He said pointing at Alec's stomach making him clenching it with his arm. Magnus stood up and paced around the room. Alec looked at him back and forth. He sat on the edge of the bed letting his feet on the floor. "I can't believe you said that after what I told you yesterday. You are my world and you are my life. I don't know how am I supposed to made you believe me. I know Max is dead but it wasn't your fault. For hundred times Alec it wasn't your fault. That car came out of no where and hit them. Yes they were coming to you but no one can predict they would had an accident on that day. They might crashed on the way to the school but it still wasn't your fault. I thought we went through this Alexander. You need to stop blaming yourself. God gives and god taken it away." Alec looked at Magnus angrily and stood up holding his stomach. "Do you tell yourself that when your mother killed herself?" Magnus stared at him with wide eyes. He couldn't believe Alec would say those things after everything. He sighed in frustration, "I think you need time alone to think back your words." Magnus was about to leave Alec when suddenly Alec grabbed his arm. "Magnus wait, I'm sorry. I didn't mean too say that. I was angry at myself." Magnus didn't dare to look at Alec and he just yanked his arm from Alec's grip hard. Alec stumbles and fell on his knees. "Arghhh." He screamed in pain and Magnus quickly turned his head and saw Alec on the ground clenching on hand on his tummy and the other on the floor holding himself. His face is frowned and he gritted his teeth in pain. "oh god Alec I'm so sorry. I wasn't thinking when I did that." Magnus held Alec's shoulder and tried to held him up but he falls back on the floor. He carried Alec to the bed and lifted his pants to checked on the knees. It was bruised and Magnus couldn't help but cried. He kneeled by Alec's side and laid his head on Alec's tummy. "Please forgive daddy. Daddy didn't meant to hurt your papa or any of you." Magnus looked up to Alec's face and his face is a mess. His eyes are swollen and red with his cheeks wet from the tears. He pulled Magnus into a hug and Magnus climbed on the bed hugging Alec. He lay down on bed with his head on Alec's chest. They both said sorry to each other and Alec calmed down after Magnus talked some senses into him. 

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