The Regret(Editing)

I Can't Do This Anymore!

I arrived to the set where Hobi was filming his music video for Day Dream. I sat in my car contemplating on whether I should turn back or confront him about how his angry behavior towards me and miscommunication was affecting my work or go back to the office. My hands still gripped the steering, while tapping my foot nervously. I don't know why I'm scared or why I lost my ability to even talk to him without wanting to run away.

I took a deep breathe before getting out of the car, slamming the door closed and locking it. I entered the small building and quickly found the crew in the middle of filming. The first thing I see is Hobi in a blue suit, seated on a colorful table with some real and fake food, surrounded by colorful walls, rapping while happily pretending to eat the food in front of him. I leaned against the wall, admiring the loving and happy Hobi I once knew. I can feel his smile filling up the whole set. This was the Hobi I missed and wanted so much and yet it disappeared out of thin air. Once they were done filming I slowly walk to him and tap his shoulder. He jolts a little at my touch and turns around and his smile suddenly fades away.

"Hey H-Hobi" I stutter out of fear and uncertainty.

"What are you doing here? I told you not to come to the set" he says angrily.

"What do you mean what I'm doing here?" Surprised and hurt at his tone and reaction "It's my job to make sure that everything on set is run smoothly. PD-nim wanted me to talk to you about it since you've been failing to tell me about anything" I say calmly trying to keep my composure.

"Look, you can't be here" He says slightly pushing me away towards the door. I stop him in the process

"How am I supposed to do my job if I don't have the ins and outs of production, Hobi"? My voice was growing more aggrivated the more he pushed me.

He sighs, roughly brushing his hair back "I don't have time for this Y/N! Just go back to the office!" He yells at me and and again I'm taken back another one of his angry outbursts. He's never called me by my first name until now.

"Wh-what do you mean you don't have time? It sure seems like you've had plenty of time going over the choreography and lyrics and production with everyone else but me! Why am I excluded, Hobi!?" my voice shakes with fear and anger, making it loud enough for for some of the crew to hear.

I hear footsteps coming from behind me and turn around to see Alex with a shocked look on her face, indicating that she was surprised to see me here. I turn my face back to Hobi.

"Hey Y/N. I thought you were in the office" She says putting her hand on my shoulder but I quickly shake her hands off of me.

"What is going on? Am I suddenly invisible? Do I no longer work for this company?" I say twirling around to look for answers but no one says a word. "What are you hiding from me Hobi?" I say chocking back the tears that started to swell in my eyes. I waited anxiously for an answer but he doesn't say anything and thats when I finally gave up fighting with him. I let out a frustrated groan and stopped to the exit but I'm stopped by Alex, who was grapping on to my arm for dear life.

"Wait! Lets go somewhere and talk" pulling me back to her.

I struggled to get out if her grasps but my body weakens when my emotions starts to take over "I see no point in that...I don't exist here anymore" covering my face to hide the tears that fell off my face. I attempt to get her off of me put she still had a firm grip on me.

"Please! We can talk it out so that you'll understand what's going on!" she begs and I was finally free from her grasp. "Hoseok please tell her wha-"

Hobi quickly marches to us and pulls Alex's arm off of me and tells her to help set of for the next part of the music video. She looks at him with worry and nods and walks away. He stands in front of me, hair falling in front of his eyes but no completely. He was staring at me with a pained expression and I couldn't help but to look away from him, knowing that it'll just make it worse.