Lost and Found

Mixed Signals

Jamie's P.O.V.

What do I say? Do I say thank you? Because of you I didn't fall and look like a complete klutz.

No no Jamie, you did that already.

Aw thanks, inner self. I can always count on you to boost my self-esteem.

Don't use that sarcasm on me.

We are the same person!

"Jamie." Raven whispers in my ear.

I guess my internal conversation was distracting me from how close I am to Raven.

"Mmhmm?" I say. His closeness is really making it hard to breathe.

All I can smell is his cologne.

Focus Jamie focus!

"You're dad has been talking to you for like the past two minutes." He says with a smirk, obviously noticing me inhale.

Good job Jamie. Now he probably thinks you're a creep.

"Maybe you should work at a cologne shop. Then people won't find it weird when you smell them." He says practically laughing.

He did not just say that.

I hear my dad clearing his throat. Obviously on purpose.

"Jamie. I'm so so sorry. I should've told you sooner, please come home."

I tell him what my eight year old cousin told me after I apologized for accidentally telling my cousin (who is my age) to 'shut up' in front of her.

"Sorry doesn't cut it anymore."

Well actually she told me 'Mommy says sorry doesn't cut it anymore.' But in think it was better to cut that part out.

Oh Evelyn. She may only be eight but she sure is something.

"Jamie. Come home."

"Well, that's her only option." A voice says from the distance. Out comes Noah.

I thought that guy was on my side!

I give him a death glare, and if looks could kill then I'd be in jail for a murder.

"What do you exactly mean?" Raven says from behind me.

I see a quick moment where disgust is evident on Noah's face when he looks over at the two of us.

He can't be serious! He would tell on me because I like his brother and not him! Unbelievable!

"I talked to mom, mom talked to Emily. And we decided that it'd be best if Jamie went home. If we keep her here then she won't begin to forgive and forget."

I laugh at his poor choice of words.

"Forgive and forget? You're not serious right?"

He looks dead serious. The smile on my face washes away and I begin with a different tone.

"No. I won't forgive them for keeping my sibling a secret. Why should I? Why does the person who gets hurt always have to be the mature one? Why can't we just hold on to grudges? I know, I know. Life goes on. Move on. But I think I've hit a roadblock. And let me tell you, it's so big that there is no way around it. The only way to get past it is diving in head first. And let me tell you, diving into it will bring me more damage than I've already received. Why can't I just wait in front of that roadblock for a better time?"

No one speaks.

Humph. Thought so.

"Well sorry. But you're going home." Noah says.

I throw another death glance his way. Why is being so obstinate? Why can't he just understand what I'm saying?

I look behind me at Raven and he seems to be in a solemn and scared state. What is he thinking about?

I nudge him. And he says in a low voice, so low that even I have trouble hearing.

"You should go."

No. Not him too.

"Raven. Why?"

"Please." He says.

A tear falls down his cheek and he nudges me forward. Before anyone can say anything else, he leaves and goes back inside.

"Goodbye Noah." I say and head over to my dad.

My dad gives me a smile. I don't return it. Anyone who has a problem with that, send me an letter and give me a reason why I should.

I get in the car.

"I'm so glad you decided to come."

"It's not like I had a choice." I mutter.

I look out the window and pray that he doesn't talk for the rest of the way home.

Well, hmm, I wonder what Raven was thinking about...

Was he maybe considering what Noah reminded him about Ariana? Or maybe about what happened three years ago? Or maybe something else? Who knows?

And Noah, is he jealous? Or is he looking out for Jamie? Or both?

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