why don't we imagines

Happier pt.2

I wake up....unfortunately.my heart was pounding out of my chest. I was in so much pain. Correction, my heart was in so much pain. No I'm not on drugs....I think. Anyways I get up and I'm dizzy. Oh what did I do last night? Did I get up to fast? Yeah probably! Is stumble around finally getting to my destination. The door. I get out out without doing anything like brushing my hair or changing only brushing my teeth. I walk outside and it was a nice day. By this time I got my balance steady. I walked around empty handed. In my pajamas. With messy hair put into a messier bun. Dry tears stained my face. Bloodshot eyes. I was walking I didn't know where but it was like my brain was directing me where to go. Then after a while of me walking I stop at....Daniels house. Why? I realized it so I was gonna walk away but the door swung open and I just sigh turning around
D-Hey?
Y-Hi...
D-Do you wanna come in maybe have a drink?
Y-Your girlfriend might not be okay with that because you know she hates me and would do anything for me to be dead
D-Oh come on
Then I gave Daniel that "we both know I'm right" look
D-Ok so?
Y-Look it was a mistake coming here I'm sorry
D-Why was it a mistake?
Y-Because I don't want to be a clingy friend like how I was a girlfriend
D-We're friends?
Y-I don't know?
I say turning around and beginning to walk away
D-PLEASE JUST COME INSIDE FOR A DRINK
He yells because I was in the middle of his driveway.
D-Please....
He whisper yells but I still hear making me feel guilty. I see my best friend watching us from her window. I look at her as she nods her head 'yes' I turn around and sigh. I walk towards Daniel and enter his house. Everything was the same, I sigh and sit on the couch
D-Do you want something to drink?
Y-No I'm good thanks
I whisper loud enough for him to hear
D-I just want us to be good please. Can we be friends please?
I take a deep breathe and sigh.
Y-It's not that simple Daniel
D-why why isn't it?
He says raising his voice
Y-Please keep your voice down
D-WHY SHOULD I???
Y-Please
D-NO
He says screaming in my face
Y-Why are you so angry with me?
I whisper yell and cry at the same time. Daniels face softens up
D-I-I-I'm sorry
He says sitting down. My legs are up to my chest as my arms wrap around them.
D-All I'm asking is for us to be cool again
Y-And all I'm saying is it's not that simple
D-Why not?
Y-Because it's hard Daniel.
D-WHATS HARD
He says screaming at me, I was hurt but I decided to scream back
Y-YOU WANNA KNOW WHATS HARD?
D-YES Y/N WHATS SO HARD FOR US TO BE FRIEND?
Y-BECAUSE I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU DANIEL JAMES SEAVEY
D-....
Y-BECAUSE SEEING YOU HAPPIER WITH MACKENZIE BREAKS MY HEART
D-.....
Y-SEEING YOU SMILE WIDER AND YOUR FACE LIGHT UP WHEN SHE THEIR THE WAY YOU LOOK AT HER. THE WAY I LOOKED AT YOU. KNOWING YOUR HAPPIER WITH HER, DANIEL, THATS WHAT MAKES IT SO HARD. I AM HAPPY FOR YOU I REALLY AM BUT PRETENDING LIKE I DONT HAVE FEELING FOR YOU STILL IS IMPOSSIBLE
D-I didn't know...I'm sorry....
Y-YOU DIDN'T KNOW?!? WE BROKE UP A WEEK AGO AND YOU ALREADY MOVED ON.
D-I'M SORRY OK, I'M SORRY
Tears were running down my face. He knows I was telling the truth. He knows that he done fucked up inviting me to come in
D-WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
Y-ACT LIKE YOU LOVE ME ME OR AT LEAST ACT LIKE YOU CARE ABOUT ME
D-I DO CARE ABOUT YOU
Y-SINCE WHEN BECAUSE WHEN WE WERE IN A(N) RELATIONSHIP, PEOPLE WOULD SEXUALLY HARRAS ME WHAT DID YOU DO ABOUT IT..."IGNORE IT BABE" HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO IGNORE THE FACT THAT SOMEONE FUCKING RAPE ME DANIEL HOW? TELL ME HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO IGNIRE THAT
D-Someone tried to- when we were- why didn't you tell me?
Y-I tried to so hard but you were always so busy.
I say as tears ran down my face and starting to form in his.
D-I'm sorry
Y-I am too
Daniel puts his face in his hands as I just sit there crying. Then the door broke open. Mackenzie
M-What is she doing here?
She says pointing at me
Y-Nothing actually just about to leave
D-No she isn't. She's just visiting oki
M-Don't touch my things including Daniel
I nod my head 'yes'
D-Lets go get a drink
I wipe my tears and so did Daniel and we pretended like nothing happened
D-Here
Daniel says handing me a cup of water. The cup looked expensive
Y-I'm good not thirsty
I say
M-Good choice
Mackenzie mumbles then takes a sip of her whatever
D-Hungry?
Y-No
I say looking down at my stomach but made it look like I was looking down
M-Another good choice
She mumbles drinking more of her whatever drink. Daniel knows all about my insecurities but he didn't do much to make me feel better about myself. I look up and I could tell by Daniels face he knows I'm feeling insecure.
D-A-Alright
He says taking the food and drink back. He sits down an drinks the water while eats the food. I just sit there with my arms crossed.
M-What are you still doing here
Y-Oh sorry
I say getting up then Daniel grabs my wrist with a tight grip
Y-Daniel your hurting me
M-Good make the grip tighter
Daniel loosens up a bit and basically forces me to sit down
D-Because I didn't tell her she could leave yet
I sit back down and cross my arms again. They were sitting in peaceful silence while I'm sitting in awkward uncomfortable silence. They were finally done eating and they went into the a living room as I just stayed in the kitchen. I heard cute small giggles and kisses. I sit there with my head down resting in my hands. Then I heard footsteps coming towards me so I look up. Daniel and Mackenzie
Y-Can I go?
D-Not yet, come joint us in the living room
Y-Why?
D-Cause come
Y-Ok
I follow them to the living room. They both sit on the couch snuggling. While I sit on the ground near the couch. Yeah there was plenty of space for me but I'm good.
Y-Can I leave now?
D-No
Y-Too bad
I got up and left. I check the time. 12:30 pm. So early. I walk back home and got up to my room and lay on my bed. I take a deep breath. I started to get flashbacks from when I got raped. I got anxiety attacks. Screaming help me. My moth being covered. Tears escaping my eyes. Trying to scream for help. I started walking around my room hands muffled in my hair, crying. Everything was happening so fast. The walls started to feel like they were closing. I felt like screaming to the top of my lungs. But then I just ended up back in bed under the covers. A lifeless body laying in the dark waiting till the day she finds happiness again.