A Girl's Guide

Poem Treat!

I decided to treat you guys with a poem which is now really close to my heart and it links to my Stop Suicide update however this poem is about bullying. Enjoy! Mainly for older readers as it gets quite complex.

To This Day by Shane Koyczan

When I was a kid

I used to think that pork chops and karate chops were the same thing

I thought they were both pork chops

and because my grandmother thought it was cute

and because they were my favourite

she let me keep doing it

not really a big deal

one day

before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees

I fell out of a tree

and bruised the right side of my body

I didn't want to tell my grandmother about it because I was afraid I'd get into trouble for playing somewhere that I shouldn't have been

a few days later the gym teacher noticed the bruise and I got sent to the principal's office

from there I was sent to another small room

with a really nice lady

who asked me all kinds of questions

about my life at home

I saw no reason to lie

as far as I was concerned

life was pretty good

I told her "whenever I'm sad

my grandmother gives me karate chops"

this lead to a full scale investigation

and I was removed from the house for three days

until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises

news of this silly little story quickly spread through the school and I earned my first nickname

pork chop

to this day

I hate pork chops

I'm not the only kid who grew up this way

surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme about sticks and stones

as if broken bones

hurt more than the names we got called

and we got called them all

so we grew up believing no one

would ever fall in love with us

that we'd be lonely forever

that we'd never meet someone

to make us feel like the sun

was something they built for us

in their tool shed

so broken heart strings bled the blues

as we tried to empty ourselves

so we would feel nothing

don't tell me that hurts less than a broken bone

that an ingrown life

is something surgeons can cut away

that theres no way for it to metastasize (spread)