Chapter 53: If You're Not The One

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Jonathan and I along with Jasmine and our entire wedding party spent the next hour and a half spending time together taking wedding pictures and drinking cocktails that were also being served in the reception hall. Only about half of our guests were staying for the reception that was set to begin at 6 p.m.
I came to life when I first kissed you
The best me has his arms around you
You make me better than I was before
Thank God I'm yours
"Introducing Mr. Jonathan Black and Mrs. Alexia Black" DJ Daydream announced our entrance.
The worst me is just a long gone memory
You put a new heartbeat inside of me
You make me better than I was before
Thank God I'm yours
The song changed into one I didn't recognize. I looked at Jonathan who took my hand and spun me onto the dance floor.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings,
But I know you are here with me now,
We'll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
"I actually love this. When did you find it?" I asked my husband as we danced around the room.
"Cameron had the radio on while we were out looking for you after I was released from prison." He answered pressing his lips to my bare shoulder.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away,
But I know that this much is true,
We'll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with,
And I wish that you could be the one I die with,
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with,
I hope I love you all my life
I felt the tears stinging my eyes as I listened to Jonathan's heart beat race as the song played.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it , I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away,
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today,
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right,
And though I can't be with you tonight,
You know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?
As the song came to an end we stood on the dance floor wrapped in each other's arms for a long moment. Silent tears passed between us before I pulled back enough to press my lips to his eliciting applause from our guests.
Jonathan pulled gently away from me as the next song began. Dina joined him effortlessly as Cameron took my hand.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
"You truly look amazing." Cameron said quietly, right hand in mine and his left hand on my back.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"You knew he changed the first dance song." I accused teasingly.
"Of course I did. He brought it up the minute he heard it. We were so worried we wouldn't find you in time so he could pull it off." He sighed.
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
"Well you did and it was perfect. I'm so grateful to you." I admitted.
"To me? What did I do?" He smiled down at me.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"You were there for him in ways I couldn't be. In a time I couldn't be. He made it through that first year because of you." I answered.
"He knew you were there." He shook his head.
"We talked all the time but it wasn't what he needed. He needed to see someone fighting for him."
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
"But it's not just that. You've always been there for me. Through all of our lives you've been there for us both." I continued
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"No, Lexi. You were always there for us. Our bond was tested over and over again and you were the one that constantly reminded us that we're a family. Now it's official. You're my sister." He smiled again.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"You've always belonged with him and I hope he knows how sorry I am that I doubted his loyalty to you."
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"Of course I do." Jonathan cut in as the song came to an end.
"Now, kindly give me back my wife." He teased his brother.
After a luxurious and elegant dinner Cameron stood up.
"Good evening everyone. My name is Cameron and I'm Jonathan's brother. I'd like to take a moment to thank everyone for coming together to celebrate Jonathan and Alexia and their love today. Love is not always perfect, but when the right people are together, they will always fight to make it work. Nothing in the world can tear them apart. These two people sitting in front of me are the epitome of true love and I am so lucky to have been a part of this special day and bear witness to this proclamation of love. Let us toast to the happy newlyweds. Jonathan and Alexia!" He said raising his glass.
Jonathan wrapped his arm around me as Dina stood next.
"Hello everyone, I'm Dina and I'm Jonathan and Alexia's close friend. They say that a successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Many of us have been lucky to fall in love before. But real love is when you are able to fall in love with that same person over and over again. In the spirit of love and unity, let’s toast the bride and groom and wish them all the happiness they deserve!" She raised her glass.
James Murphy from Sweet Luck Cakes wheeled out our four tiered wedding cake.
Each tier was I different flavor. White chocolate strawberry. Carmel vanilla. Pink champagne. Key lime pie.

I took the cake knife in my hand and Jonathan wrapped his hand around mine

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I took the cake knife in my hand and Jonathan wrapped his hand around mine.
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
After we cut the cake we opened the dance floor.
Jonathan and I spent most of the night hand in hand mingling with our guests until about ten p.m. when DJ Daydream called all of the unmarried women to the front for the bouquet toss.
I stood in front of the group of women with my back to them. I tossed my bouquet.
Stand on the bar, stomp your feet, start clapping
Got a real good feeling something bad about to happen
Drinks keep coming, throw my head back laughing
Wake up in the morning don't know what happened
When I turned around my bouquet was in Kay's hands. I smiled and winked at her.
Jonny came up to me lifted me up and spun me around setting me onto a chair.
Lay on your back, like you're right there
He knelt down in front of me using his hands to find my garter.
Don't have to say it twice, love, there's nothing here to fear
I felt his teeth against the bare skin of my thigh as they gripped the garter.
Takin' it back, back to where it's clear
He dragged the garter down my leg painfully slowly. I was ready to go.
Rollin' on and on, sounds of love are in the air
Jonathan took my garter and shot it directly into his brother's face. I laughed at Cameron's shocked expression.
Our family and friends stood on either side of the hallway leading back outside where a long black stretch limo waited for us with our honeymoon bags already loaded into it.
Jonathan and I made our way through the crowd as they threw blue and purple rose petals over our heads.
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down down down

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