Flutter by.

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Sang pov

This was my last day here. To say I was sad but excited was the reality but I was aching, I couldn't even stay in my mellow emotions without whining in pain. I didn't want to admit it but that shove did hurt. I guess I didn't feel it in the heat of the moment but it was fine though.

" Sang?" I heard my name and turned. It was chess. I smiled at him and nodded. I was folding oasis's and my clothes and packing them. We were leaving ... it was hard to actually believe. It was homey here. I'm going to miss it.

"Yes," I asked when he was strangely quiet. I turned to even check if he was in here, but I only heard a sigh and the door locked. I froze and turned completely around and he hugged me.

"Chess?" I asked concerned, and he nodded and rubbed my head.

"I'm sorry we took you away from your family to try to make your life better... yet we just seem to fuck it up and drag you into other shit....I'm sorry this all had to happen to you sang. You can tell us if you're not okay with being here with us. We want you to live a better life from your shitty one-" he said, and I frowned.

" a better life? Shitty-I was doing ok at home chess. I could have stay-"before I could finish he shook his head and frowned back at me.

" no, no, you weren't sang. When we found you,  you were 40 pounds underweight of the thinnest someone at your height could be, you were malnourished, sang ... baby ... your mother left so many scars on you from who knows how long . we've all seen them, helping you in and out of your bandages. We have no clue what the hell that wretched woman has done to you. Who knows the sociological traumas and issues you have--" he began, and I stared at him. I dropped the baby bibs I was folding and gently pushed passed him and out the door.

" sang!-" he began but I continued and slipped out the door.

I didn't like pity . I didn't like feeling like a charity case nor being read out loud like that. I know I wasnt ideal nor healthy when they found me but to hear him tell me that was a huge slap to the face . Was I being too rash? I was a bit embarrassed. I couldn't see the look in his eyes-

I breezed by the house not even minding the people I saw on my way to the backyard . I wanted to sit down somewhere quiet and collect myself and my thoughts . It was all going too fast and too much was going on even after a while of a boring ..steady routine .

I sat under the tree and looked up to the sky. It was pretty , the trees and birds flying so high hypnotized me . I didn't even notice I had sat there for a long while . I saw the sun slowly move downward and realized how much time I actually spent out here. I smiled and it all came out. Tremors and hiccups came from my body.

Nothing was wrong with me . Really I was fine ...This has been the best part of my life so far and for him to say sorry for being shitty just made me realize how truly shitty my life is for me to consider this to be the best . Things I didn't like happened ...but I was free.. I felt happy -happier than I'd ever felt , with them all here and supporting me I felt amazing.I sobbed and curled up. I cried a little more this time, but in pain . My body was aching. My mind hurts and so does my soul. Was I ok? I had to be , nothing was really wrong , everything has passed and now it's time to move on sang. I gave myself a little pep talk and nodded . I was fine !

I looked up and saw a new flock of birds flutter by .

" sang?" I heard a voice and I froze and turned half mindedly towards the voice . I hadn't even recognized it as mr.blackbournes until I saw his handsome face and suit.

" oh I'm sorry ...I'll be in ,in a second " I said and he shook his head . He sat next to me and looked up to the sky.

" i like it out here . I bought this bench and faced it exactly this way so when the sun rose and fell you could behold the beauty that is day and night. it's a beautiful spot" I nodded and looked up back at the trees and clouds.