2020 journal

january 7, 2020

1:13 a.m.

my life is still a mess. i barely finished my application for george washington university on time, bullshitted the ole miss general essay but still didn't finish honors college on time, didn't finish financial aid on time, and gave up on the g.e. reagan scholarship. 

i'm back at school now, drove up yesterday. i didn't really do anything other than unpack, eat, fuck around, and start setting up my 2020 bullet journal. i'm still up mostly because i thought i didn't have class until 1 p.m. tomorrow, but i realized an hour ago that i have class at 11 a.m. and still have to run so many errands in the morning. so really, i need to be sleeping, but whatever.

for the last several years, i've been deciding whether or not i want to join the military and if so, how and when. last august, i started an application to the u.s. naval academy, cause i thought, maybe that would be the path for me. then i decided i wanted to go to a regular university and withdrew my application. last month, i decided i will do rotc in college no matter where i go. so right now, i'm applying for the air force rotc scholarship. basically, i have a week to run 1.5 miles in less than 17 minutes, do at least 18 pushups in a minute, and at least 42 sit-ups in a minute. i'm literally not in shape at all, but we're gonna try. 

i'm so hungry. 

goodnight.