2020 journal

december 12, 2020

9:53 p.m.

hi, happy december!

i stopped writing after the last entry because i went down a spiral of mental breakdowns amidst finals week, so i didn't have it in me to try to write. after finals, i went to panama city for five days to help build a pavilion although i spent more time in the kitchen... then i started i working again. ALSO this is wild, but because at the monastery, i was sleeping by 11 and waking up by 7 everyday, i tried to keep that schedule when i came home. so almost every day since, i'm in bed by 12 and usually sleep by 1 (with the occasional 2 or 3) and wake up between 7 and 8. it's pretty nice.

there's not really much to write about honestly. i completely threw out my fitness plans for my 8-week winter break and everything. at this point, my only goals are to clean my room and do some push-ups. i'm trying to paint more, too. i also want to have a harry potter and a mcu marathon but can't get enough quiet to do so. 

i saw vy the other day, which was nice. she finished tech school and will be heading out to arizona next week. i will really miss her. :(