A new reality (Sayonika)

Monika

I sat in my room, staring at all the certificates that had been taped to the walls. I can't believe that they're even mine. I used to be so determined to get things right but now I'm just done with being perfect. People have high expectations of me but I can't do anything to make them happy. I used to be amazing at swimming but I don't even like to go near a pool anymore. Not since another girl tried pushing my head under the water. She got in major trouble for that and I just stopped. I'd had enough of it. Mum and dad saw it as ambition, that I wanted to rise up to something more. I was just tired of the girls calling me names and trying to basically drown me. Then I went to gymnastics, then dance, then kick boxing, then martial arts and back to dance again. I had won so many competitions but I hated these achievements. They don't make me human, just a clay sculpture of someone perfect. It's just draining. I don't want to do it anymore. I think the only thing keeping me here is Sayori. Is that even enough?