The Social Worker // JENLISA

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LISA POV

I got home after eating Jennie's breakfast , I couldn't hesitate she made it for me and thought about me specifically , I couldn't refuse it even though I was crapping my pants about telling my wife that I am no longer in love with her.

Once I get to our house I'm met with Irene who is on the couch , she looks exhausted and it makes me feel bad that I really was busy sleeping with Jennie that I had her worried about me all night.

I sit on the couch and she looks at me as she waits for me to speak.

"So where were you?" Irene asks me as she crosses her arms and sits backwards

"Um I stayed in a friends house becau"

"You fucking stayed in a friends house and didn't have the audacity to fucking tell me" she looks at me with anger in her eyes and now I know she isn't going to be prepared for what I tell her next.

"Yes because I needed time alone , to think about us two" I murmur out , fuck just get straight to the point , even if your ass gets homeless , you can somehow book a hotel , you have enough money to book a hotel and then the bakery opens tonight as well.

"To think about us? meaning? Wait was you at some bitches house last night?" Irene asks me as she sits up

"No I wasn't at a bitches house"

I was at a queens house alright

"So who's house?" Irene asks me

"I was at a hotel I just wanted to think about us two and why I haven't been feeling the same way as I did before" I say quickly to her and she looks at me and chuckles

"What? What do you mean? Why you haven't been feeling the same way as before" she covers her mouth as her tears fall out and I sigh heavily

"I felt like I lost you all these years and then randomly you came back and was the wife I always had loved , I thought it would be okay for us two to go back to how we were before but so much damage has already been done Irene , I just think it was too late for you to change and for us to be a happy family because the only person that would be happy is you and Ella" I respond to her as she sobs and shakes her head to say no.

"No no you have to be joking Lisa I wanted to be better because I love you , I love you so much and I wanted to be that mother for Ella , she's my baby , our baby , we're getting her back that's what you wanted Lisa , I haven't touched a bottle since I've come back for us" she grabbed my hands and sobbed

"I know and I'm proud of you but I'm not happy anymore , I wanted this more than anything , I wanted us to be back to how we were before but everytime you hit me , degraded me , you made me fall out of love with you and myself , Irene I know you changed but your words impact me everyday , whatever you said when you were angry or drunk their sober thoughts , you can't tell me otherwise , the truth is , I'll always remember those words , I hate myself for it Irene" I shake my head as I pull my hands back and stand up

"Lisa I didn't mean it you know that , you can't use my past against me" she sobs

"I'm not , I'm happy you've changed I honestly am Irene , but you've made me hate myself , I'm embarrassed of my identity and who I am and what I have a passion for , I don't want to hate myself or think bad of myself , why has all these thoughts stayed with me when you've changed your ways , I couldn't change mine , I still can't change my ways because you've done well for yourself and I sit there thinking how useless I am as a mother and as a daughter I can't even give my parents enough money" I chuckle and Irene sobs harder

"I gave you money for your bakery Lisa , I fucking supported it"

"It's not your money that was used for it , check your accounts, I'm sorry Irene , I really am , but I'm not in love with you anymore , I hope you find someone else who you can be happy with , maybe a fresh start , we aren't compatible"

I walk upstairs and she follows me as I pack my bags , I can't believe I'm doing this but I fucking have to.

"So your going? Who's the bitch? I know you weren't at a hotel"

"I can afford a hotel room Irene" I scoff

"I know , but you couldn't afford some foundation , could of covered the bite on your neck" she chuckled in a sarcastic way

"This time I actually cheated , I'm sorry" I respond , fuck such an asshole I am , I never thought that sentence would come out of my mouth , after months and months and years of accusing me when I was innocent this time I actually cheated on her.

"With who?" She asks me

I didn't respond , I couldn't risk her hurting Jennie , I know Jennie's strong but if anyone fucking touches Jennie I'll fucking kill them , even the 14 year old boy , fuck your age , having a shitty childhood doesn't give you a ticket to be an asshole , you either grow from it or let it define you , I guess that's just my mindset but i believe that , I stand by that.

"Not gonna answer , this girl is worth risking your daughter and your wife?" She chuckles

"Ella won't be with you , she'll be with me" I respond

"First of all you don't even have a house and even if you did , your bakery isn't even doing well" Irene responds

Okay here is the the degrading time

"Do not worry about that , my daughter feels safe with me so she will stay with me" I respond

I'll fucking work my ass off just for Ella to survive and be okay with me , she's terrified of Irene.

She loves Jennie to bits.

"Oh so your bitch is a rich bitch isn't she" Irene chuckled

"I'll see you around" I smile as I begin to leave

"You can't just fucking leave , Ella will be back soon , you can't just TAKE HER" Irene screams

"I'm sorry Irene" I shout back

"LISAAAA COME BACK NOW" she screams and then sobs

I stop in my tracks and turn to her

"I'm gonna call your mom and dad , hopefully they can help you because I really gotta go , I need to get my life together for Ella's sake , please if you love her do that too , be the mom I know you could be for her" I whisper before I step out the door with my luggage's and stock up my car.

A hotel would be ideal for me , I won't bother Jennie even though I wouldn't mind at all being by her every single day.

Lisa: Eaten lunch?

Jennie: Not yet , have you?

Lisa: why 😤

Jennie: I'm not hungry yet lol , what about you?

Lisa: Eat your lunch now Jennie Kim , I need my girl healthy

Jennie: your girl 🥺

Lisa: yes you are my girl is that an issue?

Jennie: no mam

Lisa: right well , eat your lunch please , or I'll come to your office and make you

Jennie: what the fuck is lunch? I don't even know what that is

Lisa: that's it I'm coming

Jennie: 👀 still don't know what lunch is

Lisa: I'll teach you

Jennie: can't wait 😏

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