Ready To Run (Kaylor)

Part 38: Begin Again

A/N: So this chapter isn't edited because I have to leave for class in ten minutes and I'm not even dressed but I REALLY wanted to give this to you guys since I know a lot of you are waiting to see what happens when Taylor goes to St. Louis!

I'll probably edit this later so if there are any stupid mistakes that take away from the content I am so sorry, like super sorry! 

Thanks so much for reading this guys! It means the world to me!

Maddie :) 

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Karlie

            “Karlie! Wake up! It’s your mother sweetie, it’s okay.” I heard my mom whisper softly. I was lying in my bed, out of breath and drenched in a mixture of sweat and tears. She wrapped her arms around me and started to stroke my hair as I cried in her shoulders. Ever since I arrived at my parent’s house a few months ago I’d been having recurring nightmares nearly every night. They were always the same; I would walk into the apartment that Taylor and I had bought together, and she would be standing there, Harry holding her in his arms. According to my family, I would call her name in my sleep and thrash about in bed. It was awful, and I hadn’t had a proper, undisturbed sleep in weeks. Every night I dreaded having to go to bed, as the nightmares took a little bit more from me each time.

“I’m sorry mom,” I said quietly, trying to catch my breath. “I don’t know why I keep having these stupid dreams. During the day I think I’m finally starting to forget her, but seeing her face and hearing her voice at night brings me back to that day in Colorado.” I explained. My mom gave me a comforting smile and put her hand over mine.

“Karlie, you’re not over her,” She stated. “Not even during the day. You’re not the same girl anymore, and I think you know that too.” She lowered her eyes at me and I knew she was right; I didn’t think that I would ever get over Taylor, no matter how much I tried fooling myself.

“Why don’t you go back to bed,” My mom cooed, fixing my sheets. I nodded my head and wiped my face with my t-shirt. “It’s almost the morning anyways, but you could use a few extra hours.”

“Okay,” I whispered. “Thank you for waking me up.” I hugged her again and she crept out of my room. Fortunately, sleep found me almost instantly, and it was uninterrupted.

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            Four hours later I crawled out of bed and walked downstairs. It was around 10:00 AM, so the rest of my family was already dressed and hanging out in the living room.

“It’s alive!” My dad joked as I turned toward the couch. “Just kidding, good morning honey.” He gave me a quick hug and I couldn’t help but smile.

“Good morning,” I replied. “So, what’s the plan for today?”

“Why don’t we go to the mall or something?” Kimberly suggested, searching our eyes for our opinions on the matter.

“I guess we could do that,” I agreed. “I don’t have anything else to do anyways.”

            I had taken a short leave from modeling so that I had the chance to spend more time with my family. I figured that it would be a good idea, because I still wasn’t ready to jump back into real-life yet. I hadn’t really read any news about Taylor, but her newest album was coming out in a little more than a week, so I guess she buried herself in her work. I couldn’t help but wonder if she had gotten the necklace in the mail, and I wanted to know how she felt about it. When I sent it to her, it felt like a small weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, but it hadn’t helped as much as I thought. My heart still felt like it was being crushed from all of the pain she caused me, and nothing that I tried could relieve it.