Not alone anymore

Chapter 21

Over the next few months Regina and I really worked a lot on our relationship. She talked every week with the doctor that she was referred to. She definitely felt better about herself and our relationship. I ended up seeing Dr. Hopper again because I had talked to him in the past. We both really changed as far as our relationship was concerned. We seemed a bit closer and we were able to talk more openly.  I fully moved back into Regina's bedroom about 3 months after Zelena left. She actually called us the other night and said she wanted to come for a visit, so she should be here tomorrow, which is great because I really needed to talk to her.
We picked her up at the airport the next afternoon and it was really nice to see her. I actually missed her smart ass personality.    When we got home Regina helped her sister unpack as I grabbed a bottle of water and went into the living to watch some tv. Less then a half hour later they both came back downstairs to join me. Regina snuggles against me on the couch while Zelena sits in the chair next to us. "So Emma my sister told me that you two have been doing very well together and that you both have been trying out therapy".   "Yeah. I believe it's really helped us have a better relationship".  I look at Regina and she's smiling. "Well that's great. I'm very happy for the both of you. Plus it's about time my sister when into therapy. I been having it for about 10 years. It's like the in thing now".  We all laugh but it's kinda true. Just about everyone as some type of counseling these days. Regina suggests a glass of wine for her and Zelena. She asked me if I wanted anything but I was fine with my water. I wasn't in the mood to  have drink just yet. It was a nice afternoon so we sat out on the back patio, listened to some music and got caught up with each other's lives. It turns out that Z has been seeing someone over in London. Apparently his name is Walsh. I don't know if it's his last name or his first name but that's all Zelena said besides that he's nice to her and he's a journalist in London. A few hours pass and we ordered some dinner to be delivered, after we ordered Regina said she was going to take a shower, which was perfect because it gave me a moment to be alone with Zelena. When Regina was gone, Zelena got up to get another glass of wine. I followed her into the kitchen. "Hey Z can we talk while Regina isn't around?"   "Hmm keeping secrets from my sister? Not smart blondie, but sure go ahead".  "Can we go into Regina's office? This is really important".  She looks at me and tries to figure out where I'm going with this. She nods and we walk into the office. I close and lock the door then I pour myself some of Regina's cider. I down the glass and sit near Zelena. "Now it's very important that this is between us. I need to show you something but you can't freak out. Promise me that and promise me that this stays between us".  She still has a weird look on her face but she nods. I show her what I bought for her sister months ago. She smiles. This is beautiful Emma. She's going to love it. Is this the first time you bought her something this nice?"   "Yeah and I'm a little scared that she won't except it because I did have to spend some money on it, but as soon as I saw it I knew it would look beautiful on her.  What do you think?"   "Emma you don't have to worry she will absolutely love it".  "You think she won't want it because it may have cost me to much?"   "She may consider that but I think she'll really like it. Do you know when you want to give it to her?"   "Soon".  I say with a little laugh. "I don't know how long I can hide it from her".  She smiles and gives me a hug. We both do a shot of Regina's cider and go back into the living room to wait for our food and Regina. We ate and relaxed then Zelena went to bed early because she was exhausted. The jet lag and the time change really drags you down. It was still a little early for Regina and I to go to bed so we watched a few shows on Netflix and snuggled on the couch together. "Sweetheart I'm getting tired. Would you mind if we go off to bed now?"   "No Regina not at all".  I give her a kiss and get up to start shutting everything off and locking up. We get to the bedroom and do our nighttime routine. We change our clothes and get into bed. "I love you babe".  "And I love you my sweetheart".  She lays her head on my shoulder and I hold her close.   "Babe can you please move a bit?  I need to get up".  She does then asks. "Is everything ok Emma?"  I go to my sock drawer and get out what I showed to Zelena earlier. I go sit on her side of the bed and smile at her. "Emma what are you doing?  I'm a little scared right now".  I lean in to kiss her. "No need to be scared babe, I'm hoping this will be a good thing. I bought you something that I hope you will like. I showed it to Zelena and she said you would love it and I hope you will".  I don't put it off any longer because if I do I may never give this to her. I put the box in her hands. "Emma what is this?"   "Open it and find out".  I say with a smile. She opens it and is almost speechless.  "Emma I, I. I don't know what to say".  "I hope you'll say you like like".  "Does this mean what I think it does?"   "Yup. Regina I absolutely and completely love you so much and really do believe that you love me otherwise we wouldn't be working so hard on improving our relationship. I saw this a few months ago when you, me and Zelena were at the mall. I knew right away that this was right".  "Emma I".   "Regina before you say anymore".   I get up and kneel down before her and look her right in the eyes. "Regina will you marry me?  It can be as soon as possible or not for 100 years but I just want to spend my life with you, so will you bless me by marrying me?"   I'm so nervous about what her answer will be. I see water forming in her eyes as she looks at me and I know mine are doing the same. After what felt like a lifetime she starts to speak.  "Emma. Yes. Just yes. I love you. Thank you".  We both smile and I kiss her. I take the diamond ring out of the box and slip it on her finger and it was perfect fit. "Oh Emma it's so beautiful. Thank you my love".  We kiss again.  "I do love you so much. We can do this my love I just know it".  I'm so happy right now. I never thought she would except this, but we have been together for almost a year and have gone through a lot in such a short time but we can definitely do this when the time is right and shit she said yes.  I got back in bed and held her tight. I'm beyond happy right now. She said yes. I think we both were to excited to sleep so we talked about how long I've been thinking about doing this, and when we could get married, and where the honeymoon should be. Regina thought we should go to a tropical island somewhere. I didn't mind the idea till she started naming off places that were way across the globe like Tahiti, Fiji, and even Indonesia.  I think she could tell I wasn't really interested in all those places. "If you don't like the idea of any of that we can always find something around here".   "Well it's not that I don't like it, it's just those places are so far away. You know how I am if I'm driving in a care that someone else driving. Can you imagine how I'd be on like a 20 hour plane ride?  They'd probably have to make an emergency landing somewhere but they can't because we are over the ocean. Then what happens? I'd totally loose my shit".  I feel my anxiety already kicking in and we are just coming up with ideas.  I sit up quickly and try to breathe.  "Emma I'm sorry. Please try to calm down. We don't have to go to any of those places".  I'm just sitting up against the headboard with my eyes closed trying to focus on my breathing. I'm not really hearing anything Regina is saying right now but I can feel her comfort me. Finally I started to come around and opened my eyes. "Emma my love are you ok?"   "Yes. I'm sorry I just lost it there for minute. I'm sorry".  "Don't be sorry dear. Not everyone likes plane trips".  She leans in to kiss me. It was definitely a comforting kiss. "Excuse me for a few minutes babe. I'm gonna go into the bathroom".  I get up and walk away. "Emma are you ok?"   "Yeah I'm good. I just want to splash some water on my face. I'll be right back".  I smile at her and go into the bathroom and close the door.  I lean over the sink and put my head down. "What the fuck is wrong with me?"   I feel my eyes starting to fill with tears. I'm such a fucking loser. I can't even talk about a plane ride with freaking out. I just shake my head and splash water on my face. I dry off with a towel then go back into the bedroom and Regina is still sitting up waiting for me. "Feeling better my love?"   "Yeah a little bit I guess".  I walk over to my side of the bed and sit down with my back to her. "Can you tell me what's wrong dear?"  I shrug and just say. "I feel stupid because I freaked out over just talking about a plane".  She moves closer to me and hugs me from behind. She kisses my cheek and puts her chin on my shoulder. "Sweetheart don't feel like that. It's a natural feeling. I don't like cruises. Being out in the middle of the ocean.  That scares the hell out of me. We all have something or even many things that we don't like. We can do anything Emma as long as we are together. I love you and I don't care if we have our honeymoon in the backyard as long as you are with me".  "So you don't think any different of me because I freaked out about this?"   "Oh my god Emma no. I could never". "Thank you". I turn around to face her. I give her a kiss and hold her close. "I still feel a little stupid though".  "You shouldn't my love. Now come on let's get back to bed".  We both get back under the covers and hold each other and fall asleep.