Not alone anymore

Chapter 43

Regina woke me up after a few hours with kisses to my face and low sweet talk into my ears. "Emma my love it's time to wake up dear. Zelena is making us breakfast my love".  I chuckle a bit and say.  "I think I'll just have orange juice babe thanks".  I laugh again. "Listen hear blondie. I may not be the best cook in the world but I can make some scrambled eggs, bacon and home fries. It's fine with me if you don't want it but don't you dear judge it till you've tried it".  She threw her dish rag at me stomped back into the kitchen.  "Damn".   "Yes Emma damn. She's trying to do something nice for us and you just laugh at it. Damn you Emma Swan".  
She gets up and follows quickly after her sister.  "Oh damn it. I need to fix this".  I get up and walk towards the kitchen. The door is open so I peek in and the sisters are eating.  I carefully step in and knock on the door.  "If I give a sincere apology will be I be able to join you both for breakfast?"   I look at Zelena who looks at Regina and they both shrug.  Zelena says. "Do what you want blondie. There's plenty of room at the kitchen island".    "Thank you and I am very very sorry. It was just a bad joke. I hope you'll be able to forgive me one day because I've liked the friendship that we've developed Zelena".   I then help myself to some scrambled eggs, bacon, home fries and toast, but I only had a few bites of the eggs and a half piece of bacon. I felt to bad to eat. I hate knowing I hurt someone I actually care about. I stand up from my stool at the island and say.  "I'm gonna go take a shower and check out what's going on down at Granny's".  "Sweetheart your not scheduled to work for another week. Why are you going in now?"   "I don't know. Maybe you sisters would like to have some time alone.  Ok I'm going to shower".  Before I can hear anything from them I leave the room quickly and run up to my bedroom. I get something to put on when I get out of the shower.  I go into the bathroom, turn on the water, take off my clothes and get onto the shower stall.  I let the water fall all over my body. I hate the feeling of hurting someone.   Damn it.  I decide to just wash up and shampoo my hair. Once I'm done I shut off the water, grab a towel and start to dry myself off. After I'm dressed I grab my towels and my clothes to throw in the hamper. As I walk out of the bathroom I see Regina sitting on the lounger in our bedroom.  As I put everything in the hamper I say.  "Hey babe what's up?"   "I could ask you the same question dear. You hardly touched your breakfast and you don't have to work but you say your going into Granny's. Why is that Emma?"   "I told you why I was going to Granny's. I just wanna see what's going on and I thought that you'd like some alone time with your sister".   "I don't believe that Emma".   I sit on the bed and tie my shoes.  "Why don't you believe me".   "Because I know you Emma. Your running away".  "What?  That's ridiculous. Why would I run?"   "You don't want to face Zelena. You made a joke and Zelena didn't like it and she called you out on it. You feel bad that you hurt her feelings so now you are going to hide away over at Granny's".   She had me there and I couldn't say she was wrong so I just stayed quiet and didn't make eye contact with her till she spoke. "What's wrong dear, cats got your tongue?"  She finishes off her question with a little chuckle.  I look at her with a small smile and say. "Regina I'm about to tell you what every wife already knows".  I take a deep breath and let it out.  "Babe you are right you are absolutely right, but I was coming back".  I give an innocent grin at that. She laughs at that and gets up to walk over to me. She leans down to kiss me and say.  "Oh Emma. What am I going to do with you?"   We kiss again.  "Baby you can do just about anything you want with me".   We kiss again and we don't stop. She moves to lay me on my back as she climbs on top of me. Her whole body is almost flat against Mine. She's almost 24 weeks we think. Every time the doctor try's to do an ultrasound the little punk inside her does the best to hide. The kid seems to be always in the fetal position and hiding behind something. Hmm. Like me. Hiding. I guess Regina will help us all to stop running and hiding.  We stop kissing for a moment and Regina pulls back a little.  "Is there something wrong my love?"   She asks with so much sincerity in her voice that it almost breaks my heart.  "No babe. Nothing is wrong.  I was just thinking how wonderful it is that you have a baby belly".  I kiss her and rub her belly.  "Emma that's not wonderful. I'm going to get all fat and have swollen ankles and I won't be able to walk. It's definitely not wonderful Emma".  That totally sours my mood. She tries to kiss me again but I turn my face a bit and she only gets half my lips. "Babe. I need to sit up please".  She moves off me and I sit up like I was before and Regina sits up next to me.  "Emma I'm sorry. Did I say something wrong?"   "You don't think the so called "Baby Bump" is wonderful Regina?  That bump is our baby growing inside you. You don't think that's wonderful?"   I stand up and put my wallet in back jeans pocket. I get my keys and tell Regina I'll see her late because I'm going to Granny's.  I quickly leave our bedroom and walk downstairs to our front door. Regina follows behind me.  "Emma wait. I'm sorry".   As I open the door I turn around and look at Regina.  "And what are you sorry for Regina?  Is it that baby inside you making your belly bigger or could it be that I'm part of that baby and now you are stuck with some weird freak?"   "Emma not once have I used those awful words towards you".   "But you heard them right?  Maybe as I was walking in the halls between classes".  She has a guilty look on her face. "Of course you did. Everyone heard that. Regina do me favor right now. Sit down and think to yourself if you can handle this. I'm going to Granny's to help out. Call me when you know what you want".   And with that I slammed the door behind me. I drive over to Granny's and sit at the counter. Granny comes over.   "Emma sweetie, what are you doing here?  Your not due back for at least another 10 days. Where is Regina, will she be joining you?"  "Probably not Granny and after today she may never be joining me again".   "On no my girl. I'm sorry. I have a few minutes do you want to go in the office to talk?"   I nod and follow her. We both sit on the little loveseat in the office and she asks me what's going on.  I tell her everything. From Regina's anxiety attack to Zelena and then to Regina not liking her baby belly. "Emma dear. Regina loves you and I'm positive that she wants a life with you. Some women have trouble with the fact that their bodies will change so much. It's not about not loving you or this baby. When my daughter was pregnant with Ruby she went through something similar. She hated going to the doctor because she knew she would get weighed."    "Granny what am I going to do about this?  Every time Regina mentions this I'm probably gonna act the same way. We can't do this every time Granny we'll never make it".  "Emma why do you always go on the defensive when something happens?  You automatically point out that you were born different and no one will ever love you".   "Because no one ever did Granny".   "That was long ago Emma. Now you have me and Ruby. What about Regina, do you believe she loves you?  Think back to before this argument happened, did you have any doubts that she loves you?"   I shake my head no. "Then why is this the first thought you went too?"   "What if she's changing her mind. Maybe she's thinking she can't handle this anymore or she doesn't want me anymore".   "I don't think that at all Emma. I love you and I love our baby Emma. I'm sorry the words I used hurt you".  Regina is standing at the office door. I give her a small smile. Granny says. "Why don't you come in dear. You two need to talk".  She walks in and sits in the chair next to us.  "Would you two like to be alone to talk?"   "It's ok Eugenia. It's probably better if you stayed. Maybe you could help us a little".   We talked with Granny for a little while before she had to go check on the restaurant. Then it was just me and Regina. We both apologized and talked things over. We got a lot off our chests. Regina told me that she was feeling a little insecure because she's going to gain a lot of weight. I guess her mother always made her self conscious about her weight. There was a lot of things she couldn't eat and she had to exercise regularly. Of course we talked about why I'm always so defensive about how I was born. I said I supposed it was because I also feel self conscious so that's always what I go with. She moves to sit on the loveseat next to me. We share a kiss and hold each other. A few minutes later she lifts her head off my shoulder and asks. "Are we ok Emma? Please tell me we can work this out. No matter what thoughts go through that beautiful head of your please remember I do love you".   "I absolutely love you to Regina. With everything that I am. I just want you to know. And I'm sorry about this in advance. I can't promise you that I won't feel like this again and I'm sure that your probably thinking the same about yourself. What I can promise you is that we can always talk and try to work things out. Is that ok with you Regina?"   She leans in to kiss me then says.  "As long as we can try hard to work things out it's fine with me dear. I love you".   "I love you too babe".  A little while later we left the office and went out to sit at the diners counter and had some dinner. After we ate Regina called her sister to see if she wanted something from Granny's. We brought her home and dinner and some dessert for all of us. My wife and I relaxed the rest of the night and went to bed early.