Attain The Sky (Engineer Series #2)

▪ twenty-two

My birthday ended peacefully, though the two friends of my parents were weird. Keith, on the other hand, is not in good terms with my brother. I asked my brother about it but he refused to answer my question. Mas lalo lamang siyang nainis kaya hindi ko na kinulit pa tungkol sa bagay na 'yon.

Si Wave, my childhood friend, pumunta rin no'ng gabi 'yon ngunit hindi rin mas'yadong nagtagal dahil may natanggap siyang offer. Nakipag-usap lang siya saglit at inabot ang gift sa akin, then umalis na. Nangako rin siya sa akin na babawi siya next time. I understand him. This is a big broject so he needs to work hard.

"Do you really want to meet her?" Sky asked as he stopped the car because it's red light.

Since it's our free time today, he decides to take me in Euty's condo so of course, I immediately grabbed the opportunity to meet her one and only girl friend. It's not because I doubt my boyfriend. I just really want to meet Euty.

"Yes," I answered as I fixed my things in my bag. "Oh! I remember something!"

"Speak," he uttered.

"Please don't tell anyone na na-kiss mo na ako sa lips. Please, baby?" I pleaded. "Kahit kanino, kahit kay Euty pa 'yan. Tell them that you only kissed me on forehead, cheeks, not sa lips. Understand?"

"Yes, master," he sighed. "But why?"

"Don't ask. Just do it." I spoke coldly.

His veins showed up as he gripped the steering wheel. He shook his head and sighed heavily. Hindi na niya ako tiningnan pang muli pagkatapos no'n. Kahit pagsalita ay hindi na niya nagawa dahil sa tampo.

Ngumuso ako at kinain ng guilt. Naging makulit ang aking mga mata at halata sa akin na hindi ako mapakali. I tried to catch his attention but he's really mad with me.

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili nang mag-stop muli ang sasakyan dahil red light. Mariin akong napapikit at ginather ang lahat ng aking lakas upang makapagsalita.

"It's just that... hindi pa ako nahahalikan ng kahit sino sa labi," I whispered.

Nanatiling suplado ang kan'yang mga mata at seryoso ang ekpresyon. Nakita ko kung paano siya huminahon. Sinulyapan niya ako at tipid na napangiti, assuring me that it's okay. I looked away and thought about something. 

"I'm sorry. Don't be mad. You can tell anyone about it," I said, my voice softens.

"No, Lily. It's okay. Huwag ka nang mag-isip-isip ng kung ano-ano riyan," he uttered.

"It's really fine with me," nasabi ko na lamang at hindi na niya dinugtungan pa iyon.

He doesn't deserve this kind of treatment. He's a good boyfriend. He's doing everything for me, lalo na 'yong hindi ko ikakagalit. I could see that he's doing his best... na takot siyang magkamali dahil ayaw niyang mag-away kami.

But I want him to think that he's perfectly imperfect... na ayos lang magkamali because that makes him perfect in my eyes. Failures and mistakes are part of our life. Walang kasiyahan kung wala ang lungkot. Hindi ka matututo kung walang pagkakamali. Hindi ka magiging malakas kung walang pagsubok na dumaan.

I earned a lot of memories for the past months. Naayos ko ang takas kong buhok dahil sa malakas na hampas ng hangin. I'm in veranda, looking up those stars and the brightest moon. Mariin akong napapikit upang mas maramdaman ang dampi ng hangin sa aking balat. Inalala ko ang lahat ng nagyari sa loob mg ilang buwan. Napangiti ako nang maisip na sobrang bilis dumaan ng araw.