Attain The Sky (Engineer Series #2)

▪ forty-one

My stomach churned as I saw my photo album that contains a pictures of me and Sky. I hid this for so long because I want to treasure everything that I had with him. The outings, the important events that I'm with him, the random pictures that we took were here.

I always have a choice in everything... and I chose not to move-on. I'm still stuck with our memories and his love that he gave for me. I still stuck in our world.

"I heard from Aziel that you finally met your ex-boyfriend."

I looked up just to see my brother that is folding his polo up to his elbow and after that, he stood in front me and took a glance on the albums that I'm looking. He cleared his throat and he tilted his head.

"Hindi ako umiyak. Alam kong 'yan ang gusto mong malaman." I plainly said.

"Kapag sinaktan ka ulit, pabugbog mo kay Aziel at Keith. Ako na bahala sa kan'ya sa Hospital. Mas lalo kong papatayin doon."

"H'wag ka na lang mag-doctor kung gan'yan ka rin naman pala." My lips pursed.

He sighed, defeated. "Lily, h'wag mo nang pahirapahan 'yang sarili mo. Kami nahihirapan sa 'yo, e," he muttered. "Try me, Sydney. I will burn that photo albums and everything that is connected with that moron."

"You are the moron, Kuya," I said nonchalantly, hiding my photo album.

"He's worst than me," iritado niyang saad.

Inayos ko ang aking mga gamit at tinago 'yon nang maayos bago ibuhos ang aking buong atensyon sa aking kapatid na mukhang kauuwi lang at dumiretso agad sa aking kuwarto. Mga tanga talaga... porket nakita ko na ulit si Sky, tingin nila iiyakan ko na naman ulit 'yon?

"Bakit ka nandito? Magpahinga ka na lang kasi, Doctor Cleve," ngumisi ako. "Hindi mo nga magamot ang aking puso na sugatan, e," I jokingly held my chest and acted that I was really hurt.

"Ipagamot mo sa ibang lalaki," nakangising sambit niya. "Mayro'n akong kilala na guwapo. Gusto mo 'yon, 'di ba?"

"Pass," diretsahan kong sagot.

"Doctor 'yon, Sydney."

"Ayaw ko. Wala oras 'yon sa akin kapag nagkataon."

"Kaya naman gamutin 'yang puso mong sugatan," his eyebrows wiggled.

I frustratedly threw the pillow into his directions at nasalagan niya 'yon. Malakas siyang tumawa habang pinapanood akong nandidiri sa kan'yang huling sinabi. Lumapit siya sa akin at inayos ang takas kong mga buhok. He cupped my face and stared at me for so long.

"Stop that, Sydney," utos niya. "Nagrereto lang naman. Buti nga, pinapayagan ka namin mag-boyfriend."

"Bakit naman kasi hindi? Naghihintay lang naman ako ng tamang oras!" I spoke loudly. "Hindi naman ako nagmamadali. Baka kasi masaktan na naman ulit ako."

"Everyone is scared of being hurt, Sydney, but please take note in your mind, na hindi ka nagmahal kung hindi ka nasaktan."

"Pass nga muna kasi, Kuya," ginulo ko ang aking buhok at mukhang nainis siya ro'n.

His jaw clenched. "You are our little baby girl," he said, smiling. "So please, protect your heart, Lily, okay? Love yourself like how you want to be loved."

He told me to sleep after that because we both have a work for tomorrow. He waited for me to sleep and I don't really have any choice but to close my eyes because he's watching me. Baka ito 'yong paraan niya ng pagbawi niya dahil madalas siyang wala. Napangiti ako sa aking isip. Mahimbing akong nakatulog nang gabing 'yon at hindi ako dinalaw ng kalungkutan.