Attain The Sky (Engineer Series #2)

▪ forty-seven

I took a hot picture of me and posted it on my instagram story. I'm bored and don't know what to do. I'm just waiting for Sky's arrival because as like what he promised yesterday, he would come here in our house to clarify the things between us and to tell me something. Cleve, Keith, and Aziel are still not aware about this because simply, I want to take this slow and I don't want to tell them about this. I want to surprise them that I invited Sky.

I'm still not sure about this but I want to take a risk. I want to give this a chance. Alam ko na noong mga nakaraan, madalas ko siyang itaboy, 'yong tipong ayaw ko nang kausapin pa, pero lahat ng iyon ay bunga ng aking takot... takot na masaktan pang muli, takot na mabalot ng kadiliman, at takot na madapang muli.

But I realized, all of it was part of my growth. Hindi ako si Sydney kung wala 'yong mga napagdaanan kong 'yon. Hindi ako magiging ganito kung hindi ko naranasan 'yon. After all, pagkatapos kong madapa, bumabangon pa rin ako... kahit na mahirap, kahit na hindi ko na kaya... and that's bravery. Everything is always in time.

"Sydney!"

Tumagal ang aking titig sa aking salamin nang marinig ko ang dumadagundong na boses na 'yon. Napangisi ako at nagpatuloy sa paglagay ng make-up sa aking mukha.

There is nothing wrong with what I'm doing. I gave Sky a chance to explain his reasons. I'm not guilty, in fact, I want to see their reaction. Gusto kong malaman kung anong katangahan na naman ang sasabihin nila sa akin.

"Fvcking open the door, Sydney!" I recognized Keith's firm voice. I raised a brow as I realized that he's not the only who's knocking at my door, I think the two man, Cleve and Aziel were already there.

"What?" I shouted. "Would you please calm the fuck down? Sinisira niyo ang door ko!"

"Sisirain ko talaga 'to kapag 'di mo pa binuksan!" The moron shouted back. "Tangina, Cleve, kunin mo nga 'yong duplicate key ng kuwarto nitong babaeng 'to!"

My forehead creased. I stretched my arm first before walking slowly toward my door. Hinanda ko na ang aking buong sarili, lalo na ang aking tainga sa malalaki at malalakas nilang boses. Nang mabuksan ko 'yon, ang tatlong mga lalaking nakapamaywang ang bumungad sa akin. I rolled my eyes and swallowed hard. Damn these boys.

"Your ex is here. Are you aware of that?" Keith said in his cold tone.

"Yes. I invited him here. What's wrong with that?" I smiled to tease them more. "Nand'yan na pala siya? O, my God! I gotta go!"

"No," Cleve gripped my arm. "Bakit 'yon nandito? What's your plan, Sydney?"

"We're going to talk. Let go of me!" I pulled back my arm. I glared at the both of them and pushed them away from me.

"Ano'ng pag-uusapan niyo? Paano ka umiyak ulit?" Keith muttered in disbelief. "Nakaahon ka na, Sydney. Ano na naman ba gusto mong mangyari? Kainin ng dilim? Umiyak gabi-gabi? Malungkot buong araw?"

"Let me. I'm not a kid, Keith. We're just going to talk to clarify everything. I want an answers to my questions years ago... so please, hayaan niyo na ako. . ." I plainly said. "Still, thank you for your concern."

Napahilamos si Keith sa kan'yang mukha. He looks frustrated and mad. Cleve, on the other hand, kept his mouth shut. Malumanay niya akong tiningnan. Ramdam kong gusto niyang umangal ngunit mas pinili niyang itikom ang kan'yang bibig. Nilingon ko naman si Aziel na taimting nakatitig sa akin. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay, hudyat na magsalita na siya ng kan'yang saloobin ngunit umiling lamang siya at mahinang natawa.