A Hopeless Dream (Creepypasta x reader)

Abomination

I backed up slowly I can't feel sad if I'm the one who had done it. I watched in horror as Masky had began to cry. I had never sen him in this state... To me he was always the strong one. The one who was a leader and fearless... not this scared looking kid. Hoodie had soothed him patting his back. I studied his face clenching my fists. I couldn't help but cry with him.

I just wanted my mom to come and help me. I want-no... needed someone to guide me! I began to sob with Masky wailing out to my hearts content. My heart hurt to hear his cries. No one would comfort me though, they must have been scared. But as I lost myself with thoughts I felt someone's presences behind me, Jeff's.

He reached out while saying " H-hey don't cry Y/N. You're fine." He spoke so gently I almost didn't even recognize him. He put his hand on my back. I saw as the world around us crumbled away. Only to reveal Jeff standing by himself in front of a older women somewhere in her mid to late thirties and a older male in his early forties. And a person who seemed to be... Liu? But not stitched up though he was punctured everywhere bleeding. "IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT" they chanted they seemed to be in a building. It was burning and the older couple seemed to be melting. The scene was so horrific I had to look away.

Stop.... just stop.... I plead with whatever was making me do this. I looked at Jeff, he seemed to be in severe anguish. I tried to run to him but I couldn't move. I just... sat there. Completely useless and letting him suffer, it ended and he looked at me. Terror deep within his eye's he backed up. "Abomination... WHAT KIND OF ABOMINATION ARE YOU?" He yelled at me I began to cry.

My fault... I'm a monster that no one wants. I ran inside of the house pushing past everyone who was gathering to see what happened. I locked myself in the bathroom. I kept causing them pain. I can't even comforted without hurting anyone. My heart felt broken and I couldn't help but sob. I heard a knock at the door. "What's the meaning behind your crying child?" It was Slender I sniffled and blew my nose. Wiping my eye's dry, I opened the door.

"I'm a abomination. A monster so horrible not even you could save me." I spoke some tears escaped the corners of my eye's. I bit my lip trying not to wail anymore. "Explain please child." Slender spoke stern but with a hint of sincerity. "Go get the others outside I don't know how to. Please don't let them see me... they think I'm horrible." I spoke cowering just thinking about it. With that he left nodding.

I sat in silence not knowing what they'd be telling him. I can't cheer myself up I can't feel anything other than sadness right now. Only to hear my name be called "Y/N can you come out here for a minute?" It sounded like Jane's voice. I unlocked the door feeling horrible and walked out. "What?" I asked her. "Come with me to Slender's office please. He needs you." She spoke half of her tone sympathetic she held out her hand. I nodded and didn't take it. "Just don't touch me... ok?" I asked her with pleading eye's. She nodded and with that we went. My heart broke a little.

When we arrived I saw everyone that was outside with me, in here and looking at me. I turned away from Jeff and Masky keeping my head low and my eye's averted. Nothing could discribe the guilt and shame I felt. I did see Masky's mask still half broken his one eye visble seemed tired and dull. Jeff had no longer been the cocky idiot he once was, he was quite and anxious. It's weird how much a person can change from a bad experience. Funny isn't it, the people you thought you knew now a polar opposite of what they once were.

"So, I understand you don't know how your power works but that it's pleasantly awful?" He used the word pleasant as if it belonged in that sentence. I nodded though I didn't like his wording. "It seems as if you put someone through their worst nightmare to suffer. That is exactly what I need. You'll be useful in punishing them and for mission's." I didn't like the punishment idea and he seemed to take notice. My eye's had widened in shook and I looked at him. "I-I.. I don't wanna hurt people!" I yelled feeling helpless in this situation. He didn't seem to care.

"That's bull shit and you know it Y/N." I heard Masky seeth glaring at me. Jeff had seemed to agree and I couldn't help but tear up. The people I thought I could try to trust just think of me as an abomination of a monster. That's all I was now... someone who could only bring pain and hurt. " D-Don't you think..." I tried to confront them only to cut myself off. "Don't you think. What. Y/N." Jeff spoke staring at me as if I caused everything horrible in the world.

"Don't you think I care for you guy's? I can't control this and you" my voice got cut off by me tearing up. "You know it..." I said my heart breaking with every single word I spoke. No matter what I said I knew they could never believe me... an abomination of a human. No matter what I did... I'll forever screw things up.

"All of you stop. Y/N listen you'll be sent on a mission with Toby, Hoodie, and Masky. You will assist them whilst trying to handle your power. Understood everyone?" His voice was all I could hear. I nodded and sighed. "You're all dismissed." With that I left first and went straight to the bathroom. I heard someone say "Yeah, stay in there. Freak." It was Jeff I couldn't feel any love anymore all that was there was sorrow and misery.

It was true though, no matter what my case was. They would never believe me. I probably scared them to the point I intimidated them. But I wanted things to change... I wanted to help them out of this miserable life but this was to be made more difficult. I want to apologize... but how? Can't they see, I can't control this god awful power? Maybe, if I went and got flowers for them. Yeah... let's do that.

I rushed down stairs almost destroying the hallway. I had tripped on my way down though. But before I did, Liu caught me. OH NO. We were back in the pitch black room. Only this time, Jeff was in it. He seemed confused, only to see Jeff. "Jeff? What are you doing?" He said confused with a hint of concern. I watched this play out like a classical concert.

Jeff had said something and Liu's eye's showed that he was heartbroken. My lips reflexively went down. My heart ached and I wanted to help him. Liu... it isn't real... You know that... don't you? I thought, sadness filling my heart even more. My lip quivered as I watched him break. I was useless in here. He shouldn't have touched me, a tear had rolled down my cheek. Tensing up I just wished for it to be over. Liu already seemed scared and dead inside.

Just... stop. I thought crying now, I tried thinking about it stopping hard. No use though, after three minutes it stopped. Liu had let go of my hand by accident and I fell hitting my head. He looked at me, eye's wide. Backing up and then running to the hallway. I felt my body tense up and I reached out for him, it was too late though. I couldn't help but let out a cry of frustration.

Running out the front door slamming it I ran to the right. There was a field of wold grass and flowers. Nothing could ever have made me feel worse. I hurt the people closest to me... and they hate me for it. They're afraid. I couldn't help but sob my woes out. My fist balled up and I slammed it on the ground.

"Why... WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE ME? I JUST WANT MY MOTHER AND FATHER... W-" my voice craked and I coughed. "why." I asked I was getting tired and the sun was setting fast. If I wanted to have an apology for them I better pick them flowers fast. There were purple hyacinths scattered around and some orchids. I picked them not a lot I had a grand total of twenty seven.

Sighing I ran back to the house and entered in. There was no one around, I took a piece of paper that was lying around with no sign of claim on it. I tore it in half and found a pen. I had wrote down a heartfelt apology knowing they wouldn't care for it anyway. Splitting the flowers up into three, I wrapped them with a (favorite color) ribbion. Making sure it looked nice I set them in tiny vases so they wouldn't die.

After I added  on some spice I looked at it. It looked... ehhhhh okay enough I suppose. I placed them nicely infront of each of their doors then knocked on them all at the same time. I ran down the stairs and hid. Occasionally looking out of my spot. I didn't see anyone rush after me so I laid back on the couch.

I realized how nice this spot was and how comfy. I think I might just not get up ever.  Letting the sleep weigh heavy on my eyelids I hoped sleep would come fast. Maybe I would never wake up again... yeah, that'd be nice. I could finally let everyone rest without a bothering little girl. And with that thought, I let the darkness consume me.

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Oh boy, back at it already author? But I thought you said- hush now dear reader, for you see. I have decided to write a lot due to not so much homework and late night thoughts. Oh and it's my b-day or whatevs lol. Have a good day!
Peace

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