Our Burning Love-A Clato Love/Survival Story <3

Chapter 12: I was a mistake

I woke up in the...training centre? I shrug and sprint home. I quickly shower and dress. I walk into class late and avoid every ones sneer's and smirk's. Whats wrong with me? Why don't I fit in? I sigh and take my seat. We have to learn all the names of the victors in order. Soon Cato will be there. 3 months, 3 months I will be dead.

In training I try to avoid Cato, its practically impossible, were private training partner's. "Clove, did I do something wrong?' he asks while Zayn isn't looking. 'No' i spit. 'There is, you wont talk to me Clove' I sigh. 'OneofuswilldieCato' I mumble. He look's confused, "ONE OF US WILL DIE CATO' I yell. 'You think I don't know that, and your answer is to push me away, we will be allies Clove, we need to be able to talk' 'Hey ladies can I get you some Coffee or anything? GET TO WORK' Zayn yells. Cato gives me a look of -We are talking after training-

Once Zayn calls training over, I bolt home. Once I reach home I wish I stayed at training. Hayzelle and Izabelle are crying, so is Ronnie and Kalen... where actually is he? I avoid me mother's dagger's being thrown at me. When she see's the welt she smiles in satisfaction. I enter the kitchen, old wooden floor boards, dirty yellow walls, wooden cupboards, some hanging on with only one hinge. Then I see Kalen, he's now 5, his birthday was in February. He got my father's height. While Ronnie and I got my mother's. Both Ronnie and Kalen look like my mother- Blond hair, blue eyes. While i got my father's looks and personality.

Kalen smiles at me, then my eyes go wide as the pot of boiling water tips slowly onto his hand and arm. I shriek as he yells in pain, one thing i cant take is someone i love get hurt I rush to his side his arm flailing in pain, as wet crystal drops slide down his milky face, I pick him up and bring him to the sink. The cold water seems like ages before it comes, he cries in agony. Ronnie and Izabelle are now by my side.

I search the cupboard and pull out some bandages. I gently dab it with a towel then quickly wrap it up. 'Bring him upstairs' I command to the girls. I burst into the living room, Hayzelle is gone, I jump on my mother, screaming at her. 'YOU I HATE YOU YOUR SON GOT BURNED AND YOU DON'T CARE, WHAT KIND OF MOTHER ARE YOU!!!' I'm furious, I've never been so angry. I extend my arm and "WHACK" I smack her hard. She crys in pain, I sneer. I continue to hit her, as she curls in a ball, bleeding. Out of nowhere she sits at me. 'You were a mistake, i should have aborted you when I had the chance, why can't you be like Veronica?' That breaks me I was a mistake. 'You were conceived the day your grandmother died, your father wanted you not me..' I feel tears coming to my eyes, I blink them away, I'm a career.

She manages to steal my 'clove' knife and slices my wrist. I dont even flinch, I kind of like the pain, it takes the emotional pain away. Blood slowly trickle's down my hand. I grab my knife and run upstairs, leaving bloody hand prints up the wall.

I walk into my room: grey walls, wooden floor boards, wooden bed and a wooden wardrobe. I sigh, I sit on my bed and Kalen crawls onto my lap. Izabelle and Ronnie are soon asleep, without dinner, mother can make it. I rush down stairs and get some Rabbit. I feed it to Kalen, I'm not hungry. I was a mistake, I should have been aborted. Once he finishes eating, I lock my door from the inside. I rock Kalen back and forth as i gently sing him a song my father sang to me;

'Light up, light up As if you have a choice, Even if you cannot hear my voice I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder, And we'll run for our lives. I can hardly speak, I understand, Why you can't raise your voice to say.'

I look at him sleeping and before I know it I am too.

Cato's POV

I sit on my bed in my light blue room, clothes scattered everywhere, I know it now. I'm In love with Clove. Yes love, I thought I'd never say that word. I don't what it is about her but I love her. Why cant I tell her? why wont she let me love her? I sigh and remember a song my father sings to my mother regularly:

'Much as you blame yourself, you can't be blamed for the way you feel

Had no example of a love, that was even remotely real

How can you understand something that you never had

Ooh baby if you let me, I can help you out with all of that

Girl let me love you

And I will love you

Until you learn to love yourself

Girl let me love you

And all your trouble

Don't be afraid, girl let me help

Girl let me love you

And I will love you

Until you learn to love yourself

Girl let me love you

A heart of numbness, gets brought to life

I'll take you there

I can see the pain behind your eyes

It's been there for quite a while

I just wanna be the one to remind what it is to smile

I would like to show you what true love can really do

Girl let me love you

And I will love you

Until you learn to love yourself

Girl let me love you

And all your trouble

Don't be afraid, girl let me help

Girl let me love you

And I will love you

Until you learn to love yourself

Girl let me love you

A heart of numbness, gets brought to life

I'll take you there''

I'm an okay singer, I suppose, why wont she let me love her, its impossible. I need to tell or show her before the games. I run my hand through my freshly washed hair. Her grey eyes so calculating. She hair so smooth, everything with her is perfect. Like it was with Carlee, i had so much pain when I lost her when I was 8, I cant lose Clove. She's my lucky clover.

A/N cloves song is run by leona lewis.. catos song is let me love you by neyo. I italicted that sentence for Clove coz its very iportanted 4 d future