By the Grace of God I will love you Unconditionally

Chapter 7

I woke up and got out of my bed. I walked to the door and unlocked it. I poked my head out into the hallway and didn't see katy. I walked to her room and the door was open just a crack. I silently opened the door and tiptoed in. I saw Katy. Out on the balcony sitting with her legs over the edge. She was wearing a hoodie with white soffee shorts and her hair was down. It was so long and beautiful. It's black strands flowed in the wind. I slowly walked out there and saw she had her eyes closed and had her face tilted upward toward the sky. When she heard me she turned and opened her eyes. They were all puffy and red. Her beautiful grey blue eyes,which were usually filled with light and hope and happiness, looked very sad and depressed and....weak. I walked over to her and she didn't say a word. I brushed some of the strands of hair from her face and as I did she grabbed my hand and squeezed it tight. Her eyes started to fill up with tears again. "No....stop....don't cry. I'm fine" I said. "No....you aren't. And it's all my fault..." She said in a hoarse, tired voice. "It's not. It's my descision. I've been cutting for years so don't think it's your fault." I said. That only seemed to make her more upset. "She let go of my hand and covered her face. "Katy...please...don't cry...." I pleaded "I just don't want you to end up like me..." She said. I didn't really know what she meant by that. "What do you mean?" I asked. A moment later, she started to roll up the sleeves of her hoodie. There were so many scars all over her arms. EVERYWHERE. Every inch of skin had the remains of the work of a sharp blade. "I don't want your arms to look as bad as mine....I can't take back what you've done...I can only try to help you prevent it from becoming worse...." She said as she pulled her sleeves down. "Don't tell anyone. Only you and Angela and Tam know." She said. I grabbed her arm and put it around me. I embraced her in a hug and she pulled me close and I held her tight. "Why....katy. Just...why? You always seem so happy and your life is so perfect." I said as I released her. I grabbed her hand as she explained. "Many different reasons. Hurtful things being said to me. Things being done to me....etc." She said. "Who said what to you katy? And who did what?" I asked, puzzled "well when Russel and I were on the brink of divorce he called me so many hurtful things. He called me a fat and ugly bitch. He called me a whore, a skank, a ho.....and...a...a slut." She said in a shaky voice. "Mommy I'm so sorry!" I said "well who did something to you?" I asked, curious. The way she got pale when I asked that question made me wonder what it was even more. "Nothing. Everything is ok." Katy swing he legs back over the balcony and embraced me in a hug. We walked hand in hand to her bed and she laid down. I laid down next to her. She hugged me tight and I fell asleep against the warm body of my mother.. Katy Perry