Always & Forever

Part 32, "Finding out the truth"

Jayda's POV

I called everyone down to eat and I instantly knew this was going to be the most awkward dinner ever. I took it upon myself to just go ahead and make everyone's plates. Everyone grabbed their plate from me and began to eat silently.

"Mommy?" Hendrix said, breaking the silence.

"Yes dear?" I said, not looking up from my plate. God I could really use a bottle of wine right now.

"Am I having another sister?"

I looked up at him not knowing what to say.

"Umm...I don't know Hendrix what would you like?"

"I want another brother." he smiled.

"Well I guess we'll have to see what happens, but I'll keep that in mind." I smiled.

My eyes met with Harry's, but I quickly ushered them away. I saw that everyone's plates were pretty much gone, so I offered seconds.

"Anyone want more?"

I saw Kara's eyes jerk up. Well I wasn't going to starve the girl so I gathered her plate and returned back to the kitchen. I know she was having a hard time so I filled her plate and returned it back. She gave me a sly head nod and returned back to eating.

I took up the kid's plates as Harry took them up to get ready for bed.

"Goodnight everyone." I said, disappearing into the room I placed my clothes in.

I heard a sly knock on the door and told whoever it was to come in. Kara appeared from behind the door and slowly walked in.

"Hey. Can I talk to you?" she whispered.

"Yeah. Come on over."

She sat next to me awkwardly and we sat there in silence.

"So?" I started.

"Right. Umm Jayda I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I know things will never be the same between us and I hate feeling like I'm the cause of the rift between you and Harry."

"You're not the cause Kara," I sighed. "Sure you're apart of it but this isn't your fault. It's Harry's."

"I'm not in love with Harry Jayda. I love Zayn. I don't know what that was between Harry and I."

"Kara......just do me a favor. Be honest. What is the history between y'all? You both claim that it's just a sister and brother relationship but I'm not dumb. What's the truth?"

Kara began to fiddle with her hands.

"I used to like Harry before Zayn way back when we first met. The feeling felt mutual but I think I was just a little too wild for him back then. That's what we talked about in the game. We did some flirting which was completely wrong and he just continued it. Harry isn't in love with me Jayda. Maybe he's just in love with the idea of me. He still is very much so in love with you."

"Yeah I think you're the only one who thinks that. What do you mean in love with the idea of you? Am I not good enough? Is he bored of me?"

"I don't necessarily think he's bored of you. I think that maybe he misses how it was when y'all first met. Maybe he missed the excitement of it all."

"And I don't? Obviously things are different Kara. We're grown, we're married, we have kids, I'm pregnant yet again. I miss having fun but I learned from an early age that I have to grow up. How could you defend him?"

"I'm not defending him. I'm just having you look at it from his side."

"Well I don't want to look at it from his side unless he tells me himself." I huffed.