him. - an eren yeager fanfiction

12. confession

Y/N couldn't help but keep thinking of Eren the day after their passionate night while she was packing her suitcase. It wasn't just the sex she was daydreaming about, it was everything about him. His flirtiness, the way he cared about her, the way his hair perfectly framed his face when it was down. She thought it was safe to say she liked him, maybe even loved him again, but that thought was incredibly scary. Before her fear could consume her, she heard a knock at the door.

"Hey— um, Jean?" She asked. It was concerning that he thought to pop up out of no where after they decided to steer clear of each other, well minus the double dates.

"Hey, Y/N..." He looked down at the floor with a sheepish smile on his face.

Y/N opened the door farther for him, "You can come in." She said with a smile. Of course, she thought, he had to show up after last night.

"I'm good right here," He murmured. "I-I came to talk to you. Just to talk, I promise."

"Jean, are you okay?" Y/N couldn't wrap her head around what they could possibly have to talk about. It's not that she didn't want to see Jean, it just felt like he was sent for some cruel joke from the universe.

He nodded before saying, "Yes... no... I don't really know." He laughed sadly and finally met Y/N's eyes.

"What's this about?" She couldn't help but notice that his eyes were slightly swollen and bloodshot, as if he'd been crying. It was a scary sight to see Jean so gloomy.

"I just wanted to say, I can't stay away from you. Look, I know how weird that sounds, but my... feelings aren't just disappearing. I don't know what the hell you or Eren have going on but I like you. Like I like you like you." he chuckled to himself and rubbed his hand over his face, "Dammit I sound like such a child right now."

Y/N was frozen by his words. Why now? Why confess after she and Eren reached a new milestone? She just needed to know why.

Reminding herself to breathe, Y/N let out her next words slowly, "I really don't know what—"

"You don't have to say anything right now. In fact, please don't say anything now. I don't think I can handle it, whether or not you reciprocate my feelings. Sasha told me you were staying at your parents' for the weekend right?"

"I mean, yes, but—" She felt horrible for lying to Jean and Sasha. It was true that she was staying somewhere for the weekend, but not with her parents.

"Please, think about it then," Jean groaned lowly before speaking again. "I don't want to get all philosophical on you, but give me a chance. I know Eren is familiar, and I don't know how great of a guy he is, but he broke your heart. and I... I've never done that. I know what it feels like to go back to someone shitty just because it feels like old times at first, but what happens when that crashes and burns?" Jean interrupted Y/N once again when she tried to speak. "If you just want me for sex honestly that's fine. I can do that, even if it hurts. And I—"

"Jean!" She couldn't think straight, there was so much coming towards her at once. "I will think about it, okay?"

He nodded respectfully before turning away and walking down the hall. There was so much she knew she had to think about that it made her head spin slightly. She had to spend a weekend with Eren while genuinely thinking about what to do with Jean's sudden confession.

The thought of seriously being with Jean hadn't really crossed Y/N's mind until now. Who the hell was she going to tell all this to? And how was anyone going to react when she told them she had to choose between an ex that cheated on her multiple times and a guy who had treated her like nothing less than a princess when it was warranted?

I don't... not like him, she thought as she sat down on her bed.

—

"But Sasha and Viviana are pretty close, right?" Eren asked, peeking over at Y/N in the passenger's seat.

"Um, yeah."

He moved his hand to rest on her thigh as he spoke, "So won't Viviana know you're not going home?"

Y/N couldn't help but keep stealing glances at Eren's hand as he caressed her inner thigh with his thumb. He most definitely knew what he was doing, especially when last night was at the forefront of both their minds. "Viviana thinks I'm staying with a friend to get out of the double dates."

"You really must not like this guy," He chuckled.

"It's not that," She hesitated slightly with her next words, "It's just awkward, you know? He's one of my best friends."

"What's his name? You've still never told me."

"And there's a reason for that. You like instigating shit, Eren."

"Come on," He whined. "I'm not going to go up to him and tell him to back off or anything."

"You totally would and he likes instigating shit too." She rolled her eyes slightly thinking of how similar the two were.

Everything about their personalities told Y/N they would clash with each other. They were both flirty, possessive assholes who had a knack for starting petty fights. The thought of the two of them in a room together made her almost too uneasy.

The conversation turned towards something Y/N was a lot more comfortable with, but her phone went off as Eren was asking if she was excited about all the "fun" they were about to get up to.

JEAN
let me know when u get home :)

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"So you're telling me I bought this apron for nothing? I really don't get to see you making breakfast tomorrow in nothing but this?" Eren pouted, holding up a black apron with pink and purple hearts.

Y/N rolled her eyes as she unpacked her bag, "I sleep until noon if I can, so absolutely not. I would never wear that anyway."

He groaned before plopping down on his bed, "You're no fun."

"Last night, it seemed like I was a lot of fun," She said, grinning, "and I bet if I told you I was on my period right now, your entire attitude would take a complete one-eighty."

"I mean a condom and a towel positioned under you just right is enough to make that work." He back leaned on his headboard with his eyes closed and his hands behind his head.

"You're disgusting."

"Not even. My buddies have period sex all the time."

She studied him for a few seconds before speaking again, "Okay, well... they're gross and you're gross."

i don't even know what the ending of this chapter is myself and i wrote it lmfao. thank you so freaking much for 500+ reads btw <3.
~ ollie