Bittersweet Silence |KTH Fanfiction|

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I'm so tired...

I need to go to sleep....

Tripping down the bus stairs as the vehicle pulls in front of your house you fall to your knees onto the ground, the dust and rocks from the driveway scraping the skin off your leg causing a small squeak to emit from your dry lips.

Looks like I'm spending today on my knees.

This is less demeaning than earlier though...

Heaving a deep sigh and pushing yourself up from the ground you pick your backpack up out of the dust and keep walking towards your house, your eyes not daring to look over at Taehyung's house beside your own.

Poor Tae....

Now he's going to get in trouble because of me...

And...he probably won't be able to talk to me anymore...

Instead of helping him...it looks like I just got him in more trouble than if I had never come here...

Throwing your backpack at the bottom of the stairs and stomping up to your room you plop down into your bean bag chair, a small frustrated groan exhaled when you feel your phone buzzing in your pocket.

I can't deal with this right now.

I just want to go to sleep...but..I have to answer.

"Hi JinWoo."

"Hey baby...everything okay?"

"No not really, I just want to go to sleep I've had a really bad day. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"Wait baby-"

Clicking the red button on your phone and tossing it up on your bed you rip your blanket down to your body and curl up, your entire face now covered in wet salty tears.

I'm so sorry JinWoo.

I don't know what's wrong with me and I can't talk to you because you make me feel so guilty about all of this.

You're doing everything to work hard for the dream you came up with for us and I'm here doing nothing but ruining other people's lives.

Letting out a deep sob into your lion plush you curl your legs up even farther and kick off your shoes, your hand viciously yanking your skirt down over your exposed thighs.

Stupid dumbass stupid school.

I hate this place.

I want to go home!

Burying your head into the bean bag chair and closing your eyes you hold your plush close to your chest, your entire body shivering and pulsing with pain coming from your bloody knees.

Silly me...

I say I want to go home...

Yet I don't even think I've ever had a real home...

I don't even know what that feels like...

But what I do know...is when I was eating with Tae and his mom at their table....

I think I caught a glimpse...

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(Taehyung's POV)

Why won't Mama tell me what was said to Y/N.

She looked like she was about to cry.

Speeding through his living room up the stairs Taehyung quickly busts through his door to the window where his friend usually waits for him, his heart dropping to his stomach when he sees she isn't there.

Oh no....

Did Y/N have to stay after school?!

I told Mama I wanted to get home earlier so I could see if she got off the bus...I wanted to show her the new marker Mama bought me...

Sliding his hands down off of the window and sitting criss cross in front of the glass Taehyung lowers his lips into a pout, his arms crossing roughly in front of his chest.

Then I'm going to wait here.

I'll wait until Y/N comes to the window.

Those guys....they just went too far....they can hurt me...or trip me all the time...they can even make fun of my ears for not working good but they can't hurt Y/N.

She's a person worth protecting and I'm going to make sure those guys don't hurt her like that anymore.

.....I wish....I could talk better....so I could tell them to leave her alone...

I wish I was tougher also...so I could be like Y/N and stand up to the bullies with her.

Flicking his eyes up to the girl's room when he sees a little movement Taehyung quickly scoots to the other side of his window, a small sigh of relief escaping his lips when he sees Y/N curled up under her blanket asleep.

I see...she came home and went to sleep...that's probably good....she's had a bad day...

I don't know what that principal lady did to her...but Y/N looked like she was about to cry...and I don't like that at all...

Leaning his head against the wall and crossing his arms still wearing the warm coat Y/N gave him Taehyung gently smiles at the girl resting comfortably, his chest slowly warming amongst his chilly empty room.

Y/N is the only person that ever made an effort to talk to me...and because of that she's being treated so poorly...

I don't know what to do with these weird feelings I have in my heart when I look at Y/N....it's so hard to explain...

All I know is I love being around her...when she smiles at me in the mornings...when she touched my hand this morning when I offered it to her it felt like a thousand butterflies were fluttering in my tummy...

Extending his hand in front of his face and blushing remembering Y/N's dainty fingers touching his skin Taehyung ticks it safely back in his pocket, his eyelashes fluttering before he slowly closes his eyes.

If I could only hear your voice...or your pretty giggle just once in my life that would be enough for me...

I know that you're way too pretty to ever consider me anything other than a friend...but...when I saw you this morning in your skirt...with your bright smile....it was enough to make my whole day...

If I had the chance...

I would tell you how beautiful you are every single day...

(A/N): Argh this was an awkward chapter. Sorry for the awkwardness 😔✊🏻