~I felt droplets of rain falling, It started to rain mildly~
~I was walking on the sidewalk and watching the busy street, walking home with such stone cold expression and gloomy feeling about what just happened~
"For a second I thought I had everything under my hands..."
~Since I learned the truth from Yeonjun about the files, my eyes are finally opened now, it was like a wake up call for me...~
"I was too obsessed with winning... that I forgot about everything that was happeneing between me and bts, my mom, Eunji and txt..."
~Walking under the dark clouds and feeling the cold wind against me, I wanted to walk faster but I was too busy in my head~
~As I was walking, I was getting near Bts' home~
~I took a glance at it and continued walking~
"I'm sorry boys. I can't imagine how hopeless you all are now. Ya'll lost everything because of me.. and that's just how ungrateful I was..."
~I got sudden flashbacks of the times I spent with them in this mansion~
*Recalling Book 1's moments*
~Yes... it was all an act. It was all fake. But I genuinely had a great time..~
~But not like every memory was pleasant. I was always harrassed and bullied by them. Almost got raped by them a hundred times. It was a long time.. we were all young. I can't really blame them. They grew up in this gang shit. I didn't even know that I was also invloved in this..~
~I always wonder if it wasn't for my dad, would've my life been so much better?. I wouldn't have known any of the boys and would've been in college. Married to someone and had a precious child in my hands... a normal person...~
"Yes... it would've been so good if it went like that.. my life would've been perfect~"
~As I was about to pass their mansion, Someone with a hood on was pacing back and forth on the sidewalk~
~It was Jungkook..~
"I have to leave him out of this situation. I have put so much burden on him... I lied to him... so before one of us actually start to have something for each other, I have to stop it."
~He finally turned around and noticed me walking to his direction~
~He first had a confused expression on but then looked like he wasn't happy to see me~
~He was walking back with his hands in his pocket and eyes fixed on mine~
~I didn't even break the contact and looked deep in his eyes and biting my lip to not cry again~
~When I was about to walk past him, I stopped~
Y/n: I.. I don't love you.
~He hmph-ed~
Jungkook: Obviously-
Y/n: But I have to make it more obvious-
~I said more like an angry way and his expression started to change~
~I gulped down the tears in my throat and inhaled~
Y/n: The only feeling you have toward me is 'lust' Jungkook, it's not love
Jungkook: Huh-
