Kota's POV
Dr.Green walks out of the room and I allow myself I fall into my feelings. It isn't the first time Mr. Blackbourne has seen me break. I am weak. He knows that. I am at 589. Counting keeps the emotions just under the surface. I stop counting.
This is ridiculous. I can't keep my girlfriend from getting kidnapped. I can't keep my brother alive. I can't.
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I am the absolute worst brother. The worst boyfriend. I shouldn't be in charge. I can't be in charge.
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I choke up. Why am I doing this? Why am I doing this to them?
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Tears blur my vision and I hiccup. I am crying hysterically.
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I can't calm down. I can't catch my breath. I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't keep doing this to them.
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They don't deserve to be subjected to me. I can't keep failing them.
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I feel the couch move next to me but I don't look up.
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An arm wraps around my shoulders, but I can't process thoughts right now.
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I gulp down air. Mr. Blackbourne is my boss. I am being extremely unprofessional.
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I look to him. "I-I re-resign as team lead." He is taken aback. "Why?"
"I refuse to continue failing the team. I don't deserve to be leader."
"You are not failing the team," his voice softens, "I am."
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The Difference Between Fear and Terror
FanfictionAn Acdemy Ghost Bird fanfic. Sang is kidnapped and held for a year under a brutally abusive abductor. Will she and the family ever heal?