I watch you like a hawk _Oli Sykes Fanfiction

Chapter 38

Kat’s POV:

“Sometimes we’re holding angels, and we never even know

Don’t know if we’ll make it

But we know, we just can’t let it show” _ Holding on and Letting go, Ross Copperman

I woke up in a start, my pulse erratic. My breath came in gasps as I tried to calm down.

“Kat, Kat you’re fine,” a voice whispered urgently in my ear. “Breathe, just breathe. I’m here now. You’re fine.”

I concentrated on the voice, trying to drown out the lingering fears of what had to be my third nightmare of the night.

“God, Oli, I’m so sorry,” I said as soon as I could somewhat control my voice.

“It’s okay, love.”

“No it’s not, I’m preventing you from sleeping!”

“Hey, Kat, calm down. It doesn’t bother me at all,” he said in the same reassuring voice.”

“No, no, you need the rest! God, what am I even doing? I’ll go back to my bus, now, I’ll let you sleep. I’m so sorry.”

“No—what are you even saying? You can’t leave now; we’re on the road! And it doesn’t matter Kat – I mean of course it matters, it’s bad that you have nightmares – but I honestly don’t mind taking care of you.” His words came out rushed, but his voice was as warm and soothing as ever. “Don’t you see? I wanna be there for you.”

I swallowed hard and tried to make out his features in the darkness. Saying I felt bad for waking him up through the night was an understatement. Because of me, he wouldn’t be fully rested tomorrow. Because of me, he’d be tired as hell. Because of me, he’d be in a bad mood.

I shook my head.

“I’ll go sleep on the couch.”

“What? No!”

“Yes, I’ll be fine. Get some rest.”

“Get some rest? I can’t get some rest if I know you’re having a nightmare in the other room! I can’t let you suffer!”

I smiled tiredly.

“I’ll be fine, Oli. I’m used to it. It’s not worth depriving you from sleep.”

“Nonsense. I don’t care about sleep, I care about you.”

The arrow found its mark, and all my protests died.

“I love you,” I simply whispered instead, and he smiled.

“Then stay here. I’ll protect you.”

I nodded in defeat and settled back down on the bunk, Oli’s warm presence next to me giving me a delicious sense of comfort. But it wasn’t enough. I knew it wouldn’t stop the nightmares. I sighed in the silence of the night. Oli said it’d be okay, but here’s the thing. It’d be okay for the first couple of days, maybe the first week, but soon it wouldn’t be that okay anymore. What Oli didn’t know is that this was a nightly occurrence. This was an every day thing for me, and I was used to it by now, but I wasn’t willing to put anyone else through this torture.

“Stop thinking so hard and go to sleep,” Oli murmured in my ear.

Closing my eyes, I followed his instructions.

The next morning, Oli and I slept in. We woke at around midday, when his bandmates started shouting things in our ears.