The Playboy and the F*ckboy [BL] Season 1

58: Guilt

That night, Aeiou lied on his bed, waiting for night torpor to hit. But nothing came in.

He swapped positions on his bed countless times, left, right, up and down —  nothing happened. He was still wide awake, still looking for the warmth beside his bed.

Aeiou sighed. He had no choice but to do what he did on the past few nights to trick himself to sleep. He took his extra pillow and put i under him as he lied on it with his stomach.

More. Aeiou tigtened his hug on the pillow. More... More... more and more until the soft pillow got crumpled on his arms into a little ball. His mind  chanted: This was too soft!

Aeiou banged his head on his bed. He could not sleep, he could not sleep because the thing he was hugging was not hard and strong and muscular as Zed.

He let go of the poor pillow and stared at his ceiling.

Aeiou wondered what Zed did to him that his body started to long for the prince's touch.

Aeiou pressed his eyes and replayed all the things that happened this day, hoping that his brain would soon feel tired of doing so.

"Zed loves you."

Remembering those words from Hansel, Aeiou breathed deeply. He opened his eyes and his face was serious.

Why would Hansel say that? And how the hell was Zed romantically in love with me? What did I do? Aeiou swapped his position to the other side.

Also, why would Zed lose his mind about finding about Tori? We're... only... only friends. I bet he would even make fun of me!

"A friend..." —Aeiou gulped— "a friend that I needed to hug for me to sleep," he sarcastically said to himself.

Strangely, Aeiou wished that Zed was ther with him.

It isn't weird right? To wish your best friend is here beside your bed, letting yourself hug him tightly and share his warmth with you.

Suddenly, Aeiou remembered Zed's underwear that was left wet inside their bathroom.

Should I... Hug that instead? He won't mind right? Since we are friends. Wait... What am I thinking?!

Aeiou slapped himself for real. What on earth was I thinking?! That's gross!

He buried his face on his pillow and punched his bed in annoyance.
.......

It was five in the morning. Zed went out of his bed and punched the suspended bag in his room. He continued to do so for thirty minutes.

Once he felt his sweat drenching from his forehead, he stopped and went to his study table.

He pulled the chair and sat his bum. He stretched his fingers, spread it on the keyboard and typed; "How to fuck a man's ass... Enter."

A good number of porn videos appeared. Zed took a deep breath and summoned his courage to click one of these links.

Zed prepared himself for the war. He inhaled deeply and clicked on one.

The video of two mature guys automatically played.

They kissed—Zed nodded.

They touched each other's body—Zed felt bored, this was not he was looking for. He clicked on fast forward, only to see the two mature figures sucking each other.

In an instant, Zed just wanted to punch the monitor. He had the urge to exit immediately. He just scrolled down and the next video popped up.

"Two best friends lost their virginity to each other." as Zed read the title.