Mula noon, Hanggang ngayon (BiaMi)

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Yumi's Pov

Inaakay ako ni mama paupo sa sofa sa living room, as I requested walang maid and wala si papa just us. I just want to talk to her at kay mom. Tinawagan kona si mom thru facetime, I asked kung nasan sina dad pati sina tito and tita, she said hindi niya kasama so I trusted her.

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I told them everything, in detail.

"Ikaw anak, ano ba gusto mo mangyare?" tanong ni mom, I can see from her eyes na paiyak narin siya, si mama din. I want to say something but I can't talk, iyak lang ako ng iyak. Ang sakit. Nahihirapan na akong huminga. "I'll get you some water apo just calm down, inhale... exhale... come on" umalis si mama sa tabi ko at agad na kumuha ng water.

"I want to talk to her, pero alam kong pag nag usap kami, it can break the both of us, it can... end our relationship" sagot ko habang pinipigilan umiyak, "I don't want to lose her, she's my bianca" tears escaped.

Ayokong mawala siya, she completes me, she's the yin to my yang, we always go together. Hindi ko kaya pag Nawala siya. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako pag Nawala siya sakin, hindi ko alam kung saan ako kukuha ng lakas. at Pag Nawala siya, mawawala rin ako.

"Anak, kung hindi kayo mag uusap, patuloy ka lang masasaktan, do you want me to talk to her?" tanong ni mom, "No mom, ako na, I just need time"

"Apo, hindi pupwedeng patagalin pa ito, nasasaktan kami ng mom mo na nakikita ka naming nagkaka ganyan, masaya kayo ni bianca sa isa't isa at alam namin na mahal niyo ang isa't isa, pinatunayan niyo yan at Nakita namin. pero mali na ang nangyayare, nasasaktan ka ng palihim apo"

Pagod na akong umiyak, ayoko na. Hindi lang to tungkol sa lagi siyang nag cecellphone or not saying I love you or not calling me by our endearment. Tama si fat wala na siyang time sakin, hindi na niya ako binibigyan ng attention. Not like before, dati nga hindi namin alam kung ano yung cellphone dahil pag magkasama kami, we always have something to talk about, pero ngayon. Wala. Nagbago na lahat.

Lahat nagbago simula nung naging girlfriend ko siya, kung ganito pala mangyayare sana hindi kona siya tinanong at hinayaan ko nalang na nasa ganong stage kami. kung alam ko lang na magiging ganto pala kasakit sana hindi kona tinuloy.

"Anak, you know naman na whatever happens nandito kami, we will never leave you, okay, if you already have the strength to talk to her, do not hesitate, ayaw kong nakikita na lumuluha yang magaganda mong mata."

"Smile na apo" sabi ni mama then she hugged me. I can't stop crying, the pain won't stop.

"Sige na anak, we have to work, remember what I told you, I love you so much! Take care" then she ended the call. Morning kayna mom so may work pa sila. I rested on the sofa while mama is caressing my hand.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

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I opened my eyes only to see the high ceiling of our living room, "Apo it's 1am already are you going to stay here?" tanong ni mama, I took a deep breath and looked at her, "No po, uuwi po ako" sagot ko then I drank the water.

"Uuwi, that's really your home na no apo?" tanong ulit ni mama habang nakangiti, umiling ako, "My home is wherever bianca is, she is my home" then I smiled, "Kung nasa tabing kalsada man kami, that's home as long as kasama ko siya and masaya kami." Dagdag ko.

"But now, seems like my home is slowly turning into a working office, masyadong maraming nangyayare, nakakapagod, nakakawala ng gana, pero you will realize na, you chose that, yun yung trabaho na gusto mo at mahal mo, so you'll stay and you'll keep working hard and you will always find a reason to stay no matter how tiring it is."

"Yung kahit bigyan ka ng mundo ng 99 problems and reasons to leave that work place, you will always choose to find and hold on to that 1 remaining reason to stay, kasi nga mahal mo" dagdag ko ulit, while looking at mama.

"I love your wisdom apo, maganda ang pagpapalaki namin sayo, at naiintindihan kita, you want to hold on to bianca even if she's already giving you reasons to leave, kasi mahal mo siya at pinipili mo siya, at pipiliin mo ng paulit ulit" sabi ni mama while holding my hand.

"Pero apo, that 99 reasons are so tiring, I know you can handle it, you're strong, pero apo tao ka lang din napapagod and eventually susuko. Hindi masama magpahinga pag napapagod na, take a break... from her and when you're healed come and win her back" dagdag ni mama. She's going to make me cry again.

"I'm not forcing you to break up with her, I'm just advising you to talk to her and maybe fix things, but you said this will lead to the end of your relationship, just remember na when that happens, nandito kaming pamilya mo okay, mahal ka namin at hindi kami mapapagod." Then she hugged me.

This old woman is making me cry, kakapahinga ko lang sa kakaiyak eh! I sobbed and she heard it of course, now she's caressing my back making me cry even more, I'm so weak.

"Oh siya sige na apo, tumahan kana, at anong oras na, nag aantay na ang mahal mo" sabi ni lola then she stood up, "Opo ma, umakyat na po tayo sa room niyo and rest na, I'll just stay here for a while then uuwi na po ako" I stood up at hinatid siya sa room. I kissed her forhead at bumalik na sa living room.

Since is Saturday I will talk to her, kailangan sa relationship honest kayo, and I want to be honest, kahit siya hindi. Nagpunta ako ng bathroom to wash my face then I drank water at lumabas na ng house nina mama.

I drove pauwi sa condo, im thinking happy thoughts, I want our relationship to work hanggang dulo, so I'm being honest. Nagpark na ako then sumakay na ng elevator. Naglalakad na ako sa hallway and fuck this heart! Lalabas na ata sa sobrang kaba.

My heart was beating so fast yung parang naka sampung kapeng barako ako. Wtf is wrong with this heart. I entered our pin which is anniversary namin at dahan dahan na binuksan yung pinto, dumiretso ako sa living room para ilapag yung gamit ko I can't see anything! of course it's dark baka tulog na si bianca.

I walked towards our room and I heard a giggle.

I slowly opened our door dahil baka magising ko si bianca-

My eyes turned into a waterfall again but this time the water was so fast and it keeps on going, while I watch the both of them. I was stuck in my position, I can't move my hand, my feet were stuck on the ground like it was pinned there, my eyes were all blurry but I can clearly see that my home was happy, super happy.

Then our eyes met, her eyes widened then she pushed the girl on top of her, right there and then my feet moved, and I ran towards the door fast as I can and left her. I sat on the floor in front of my car.

"love, let me explain, please" pagmamakaawa niya, habang naiyak, now she's dressed and she's calling me 'love' Naglalakad na siya palapit.

"No, don't go near me, please, bukas na natin pag usapan, tapusin mona yang ginagawa niyo" kalmado kong sagot, i can't shout at her, i just can't. Tinignan ko yung babae na kasunod niya "traydor" i mouthed, hindi naman siya bobo para hindi maintindihan yon, pumasok na ako ng kotse at nag drive na pabalik kay mama.

tangina.

——————————————— 🌙 wazzup guys, i'll update again later mga 11 siguro, ieedit ko lang yung chapter 32 wait for me okay! 😚