Mula noon, Hanggang ngayon (BiaMi)

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Yumi's Pov

I drove myself pabalik sa house ni mama at nahiga sa sofa, i have my room here, pero sobrang daming ala ala don, hindi ko kaya. I was crying my heart out... thinking what did I do wrong...

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"Oh apo, akala ko uuwi ka?" tanong ni mama, while I'm sitting drinking water. I hugged her and tears escaped my eyes, "why apo? Tell me what happened" sabi ni mama habang hinahagod yung likod ko, "I saw- her- with- ano-ther girl- in- our... bed" sagot ko habang nahikbi. Mas hinigpitan ni mama yung yakap niya. ang sakit. Pinahiga niya muna ako sa sofa.

I don't know but nagising nalang ako ng masakit yung ulo. I was about to cry about to remember what happened but mama called me, "Let's eat miryenda bago kayo mag usap" hindi ako nagugutom. "No na po mama, una na po ako" then lumabas na ako ng house.

She didn't say anything but it means everything, her silence means I need to break up with bianca, her silence means she will tell it to mom and that means we will leave.

I took a deep breath before I drove to our condo, naiiyak ako, I wanto cry but nangingibabaw yung galit ko. Nakarating ako sa parking ng condo safe. Habang naglalakad ako sa hallway at papalapit ng papalapit sa pintuan namin, my heart is slowly tearing apart. Alam kong hindi maganda ang kalalabasan nito and we'll end up breaking each other.

There's still time to go back and just walk away and just leave but walang mangyayare kung ganon, that won't solve anything, it'll make things worse. Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa pinto namin and entered our pin. Even entering our pin hurts.

I opened the door and saw her crying sa living room, my heart hurts even more every time she's crying, her precious eyes. But I have to do this, mali na eh. lalapit na sana siya but, "No stop, jan ka lang, please" naupo siya sa sofa and I sat in front of her, away from her.

I took a deep breath, trying to hold back my tears. Then I looked at her, habang nakatungo siya.

"Alam mo bianca, sobrang okay tayo eh, sobrang ganda ng relationship natin, meron tayong fame, money, supportive family, merong supportive friends, at sandamak mak na supporters almost perfect na nga eh, tapos eto? Ganto gagawin mo?"

"Mahal kita, higit pa sa sobra, at pinatunayan ko yan sayo, at hanggang ngayon pinapatunayan ko sayo, pero baket?! Ano may mali ba sakin? nagkulang ba ako? Nasaktan ba kita? ANO!!!" i managed to shout kahit ang sakit.

"I was drunk- "

"BULLSHIT!!! DON'T FUCKING GIVE ME THAT FUCKING REASON! KAHIT LASING KA ALAM MO GINAGAWA MO! Ilang beses na tayo ng sex ng either ikaw yung sobrang lasing or ako, or minsan parehas pa tayo! AT ALAM KONG ALAM MO YUNG GINAGAWA MO! SO, STOP THAT I WAS DRUNK SHIT AT SABIHIN MO SAKIN BAKET!!" I couldn't help it, sobrang sakit na ng lahat ng nangyayare tapos mag sisinungaling pa siya.

"BAKIT KA NAKIPAG SEX KAY ASHTINE!!!" "BAKIT SI ASHTINE!!!" sigaw ko ulit, na lalo niyang ikinaiyak. It hurts, hindi lang siya yung nasasaktan, pati ako.

I toned down and looked at her, "bakit si ashtine?" I broke down, hindi kona napigilan na umiyak, ashtine was a good friend, a very good friend, neutral siya samin but fuck! Alam ko may girlfriend siya tapos ganto. I trusted her big time!

Hindi ako makapaniwala na of all people si ashtine pa, bakit si ashtine. She was fucking there the whole time, alam ng lahat ng tao na may something kami ni bianca at alam ng lahat na may girlfriend siya! KAYA BAKET!!!