Mula noon, Hanggang ngayon (BiaMi)

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Bianca's Pov

First week, June

"Hi love, I'm home na, maluwag yung sched ko for June and July we can have some quality time, makakabawi na ako" bungad niya at nilapag yung uwi niyang pasalubong sa dining table, she's smiling, a wide smile, like everything's fine when it's not. I'm just staring at her at huminga na ako ng malalim.

"We need to talk, a serious talk and please let's be honest" saad ko looking at her, dahan dahan naman siyang naglakad palapit at binaba na yung dala niyang bag sa sahig. We need this, kasi gusto kong maayos to, maayos kami.

"Yes love, go ahead I'll listen" sagot niya at naupo sa tabi ko, she held my hand signaling me to start talking, I inhaled deep and... "Please don't tell na pagod kana" bigla niyang sabi at mas humigpit pa yung hawak niya, "please" dagdag pa niya.

Seeing her right now breaks my heart, ang payat niya na, yung mata niya pagod na pagod narin. Masakit din tong gagawin ko but I need to tell her the truth and we need to fix this. Kailangan natin to ayusin bago pa lumala ang lahat.

"I love you, pero love unti unti na akong napapagod, oo nandito ka sa pilipinas nasa isang bubong tayo pero para ang layo layo mo, lagi kang wala, hindi ka nag uupdate, you kept promising na babawi ka na tatawag ka pero wala namang nangyayare" panimula ko looking at her pero nakatingin lang siya sa kamay namin.

"Love I want this to work, I want US to work, pero you have to communicate with me, hindi ako manghuhula para malaman kung nasaang parte kana ng mundo" dagdag kopa, she looked at me and said "I'm sorry" in her sincerest way.

"Yumi, all I'm asking for is a little bit of your time, pero hindi mo parin nabibigay. Love gusto ko mag work tayo dahil gusto kitang makasama habang buhay, gusto kita pakasalan pero, hindi ko alam kung paano ako kakapit kung ganto yung nangyayare satin" saad ko.

"Hey look at me" utos ko at nakita ko namang nang gigilid na yung luha niya, nasasaktan din ako. I held her hand tight and said...

"If you want us to work, you have to communicate with me, I'm your fiancé and we have a wedding ahead of us, hindi ako side chick mo na kakausapin mo lang pag gusto mo, I am your fiancé Yumi... fiancé" pagtatapos ko at pinunasan na yung luhang pumatak sa muka niya.

"Hey, I'm not breaking up with you, hindi rin ako nahingi ng space, I'm just being honest, because I want to be honest, and gusto ko ikaw rin" dagdag ko ulit dahil hindi parin natigil yung luha niya. "Stop crying na and kausapin mo ako please, tell me something, anything" saad ko still wiping her tears off.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were feeling that way already, I won't promise anything but I will try my best para bumawi sayo" sagot niya then she cupped my face, looking intently into my eyes.

"I will give you more than enough reasons to hold on, dahil gusto ko din na mag work to, I proposed in front of you and our family and that means gusto kitang makasama habang buhay, at papatunayan ko yon sayo" dagdag pa niya, masaya ako dahil nagkausap na kami at sana magtuloy tuloy.

"And you're not my side chick, you're my fiancé... fiancé and you deserve the best, at handa akong ibigay sayo yon, kahit mahirap I will do my best, because you deserve it, deserve mong mahalin ng higit pa sa sobra" pagtatapos niya at pinagdikit na ang noo namin.

I've been longing for us to have this moment. This intimate moment and the tension between the two of us. I slowly leaned forward because she did it first, and I was an inch away from her lips ng...