The Deal About Us

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"Where are you going?"

"Am I supposed to ans-oh Mia" I exclaimed forcing a smile onto my grim face

"So......."

"I have work and don't ask me that question from behind. I may say something offensive without turning to face you and try to get rid of this habit of asking" I said and walked away

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"May I ask who you are looking for ma'am?"

"Dr. Hernandez"

"Sure, just let me give a call to him"

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"Did Tyler inform you about anything?" I asked him

"No, is there something I need to be aware of?" he asked playing with his stethoscope

"I-I suffered a miscarriage," I said and he stumbled back. I let him grieve but I never went to comfort him

"Doesn't it upset you? I agree it was a mistake but still it was yours. How heartless can you be?"

"You don't know what goes around in my life. I thought you ought to know" I said and walked out

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"Keith, have you seen my husband?" I asked 

"Yeah, he went out a while ago. I don't know where but he asked not to follow him" he replied putting his book down

"Did he take his car?" I asked leaning against the doorframe

"Yes, and oh he said he'll be staying in the private quarters of his club," he said 

"Okay," I said and turned to walk back

" but which one?" I spun and asked

"The big one at the border" he replied

"Thank you and I think it's time you teach Mia and Allen about our ways," I said 

"But he is a baby!" he stood up 

"Were we not?" I asked and was about to walk away when he pulled me towards himself by my hand

"Is something wrong Jane?"

"I'm not off duty yet. It's boss"

"Nothing matters more than family, isn't that what dad used to say?"

"It's nothing, really"

"Is it because it's coming back? Don't worry I'll help you"

"No, it's not that"

"Then?"

"The baby died"

"But Julia- the doctor said we bought her right in time to save both of them. How could you not tell me this? I-"

"Gio's fine, but mine's not" I whispered. He hugged me as I tried to not cry again

"I need to go if I want to catch Tyler sober. Drunk Tyler isn't exactly my favorite" I chuckled dryly

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I walked into the loud crowded club. It was decorated with neon bright lights and the dance floor was one of my favorites. I stared at the bar moving through the crowd to find him. I saw him picking up a glass of something, which strongly resembled whisky. I pulled the glass away from him and downed it as I sat beside him on a barstool.

"Are you okay?" I asked as he got up to leave, I pulled him by his hand and got up. I got closer to him, I wrapped his hands around my waist. Our chests touching.

"You know you can confide in me right?" I asked my hands on his chest.

"I love you" he whispered burying his head in the crook of my neck. I slid my hands from his chest to his back holding him in place.

"It's for the best Tyler, the child didn't deserve this cruel world but I'm glad you loved my baby. I'm glad everything you said before wasn't true. I'm glad you loved my baby as your own. You're devastated because my baby left but don't you see it too? My baby is safe wherever she is" I whispered

"She?" he asked

"I had a feeling it was a girl" I smiled but I couldn't explain all the pain the smile held. I'm selfish and I'm devastated that my baby left me. She was taken away from me because I'm not good enough. I loved her a lot. My baby.