The Dark Ghosts

90. Forgiveness

Nathan's POV

I've fucked up.

I had known that ever since Sadie started speaking about our promise, yet my proud mouth couldn't just shut up and had to ruin everything between us, making me say things I didn't mean and now regret, things I knew that had hurt her.

My hands and legs were shaking and the back of my neck was coated in sweat beads as I stared at the gorgeous girl in sight. Dressed in some simple sweats, Sadie laid over her stomach on the couch, typing something on her laptop in front of her. I stayed watching her silently from the darkness that soaked the corridor which you take to go to the offices, taking few deep breaths to soothe my growing nerves.

I was glad she was home now. Bianca managed to convince her this morning to come here, take a relaxing bath, have something other than hospital food to eat and take a well-deserved rest, all since I hadn't spoken to her ever since our argument yesterday night, which may I add was a fucking nightmare, especially knowing we weren't in good terms. At least Sadie gave in to Bianca's pleads, now feeling more relieved that her brother's going to be fine. And to be honest, I was relieved too. His well-being influenced on Sadie's well-being and, moreover, Xavier is a good man, I wouldn't want anything bad happening to him.

I started walking two minutes after I had gotten lost in thought, the pep talk Alec gave me repeating inside my head, reminiscing each and every reassuring word he spoke about how we would be able to fix our problems, how if we truly loved each other, we'd manage to find a solution to such thing.

Sadie's head snapped from the screen to my frame as soon as she heard my footsteps. She watched me from head to toe, slowly moving to get up on her feet, turning to face me. Her fingers were instantly interlocked in front of her stomach, playing with one another and looking more nervous than I'd ever seen her.

Tons of emotions rushed through me as I got lost in her chocolate brown eyes, Sadie herself doing the same in mine. I had never felt so vulnerable, so seen, but I didn't care, not with her. She already had my whole heart, I didn't mind her seeing all I felt. Suddenly, we both took a single step forward and, in a matter of seconds, we were both tangled in each other's arms.

This felt so right, having her in my arms would always feel right. It was as if she belonged here, as if I was made to hold her, even if her body was so fucking tiny in comparison to mine. This is the best fucking feeling in the world.

"I'm sorry," we both said in sync after a few seconds of just standing there, making us laugh out loud.

Our laughter died down seconds later as my hold on her tightened, feeling her do the same. She looked up at me, resting her chin on my chest as I glanced down at her. A set of wild butterflies, almost feeling like an entire zoo, settled on my stomach right then.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have made such a big deal out of it. Even though I still don't like what you did, I shouldn't have acted as if you had done it all just to hurt me," she apologized softly.

I kissed her nose. "Don't you dare apologize for that, little genius. You had all the right to be mad at me, I should have never broken your promise and I'm sorry for that. Just as I'm sorry for saying you couldn't protect your brother when I know you're the best sister in this whole fucking world and you sacrifice yourself every day just so you ensure his happiness and safety."

"And I'm sorry for accusing you of doing it all because of your pride," she smiled sadly at me.

I hugged her closer to my body, sighing in content at the feeling of having her in between my arms again. I leaned my forehead against hers, both her and I closing our eyes for a second with the action.