The Story Of Us

Tormented

Scarlett's POV:

Tears continuesly flowing out of my eyes, as i drive into to the unknown. I just drive and drive wherever this car leads me, and i somehow found myself to the beach.

Our beach.

Where our friendship bloom, where i took her on the night of our first date, where i proposed and married her. This holds so much memories. I would always go here with her, as she don't want me going here without her, but now, it's as if this is the only things that reminds me of her, this is the only thing that makes me feel happy because of her.

The thought of them kissing is burned in the back of my mind, even though i did something more terrible, i still feel so betrayed, i feel anger rushing through my veins, the pain and sadness mixing in the blood of my heart. I probably deserve this anyways.

When i cheated on her, is this what she felt? The unbearable pain, the shocking betrayal, is this what she felt? Or maybe she felt more than this. So many thoughts run inside my head, some of them are trying to make me feel better, some them is trying to guilt trip me, saying that i deserve this, and there's no such reason for me to be like this.

She's my girl, my wife, mine. I can't have her falling inlove with someone, i don't want her to leave as much as i don't want her to have and find someone new.

But, maybe, if she did found someone new, maybe that person would treat her better- more better than i did, maybe that person is more better than me.

All the thoughts that is running in my mind, making me feel lost. The mixed up feelings inside me, making me feel almost numb. I'm so lost that i didn't even notice im already inside our house in this beach, sitting on the couch, drinking a bottle of whatever alcohol is in my hand, my trembling hands. While i beg to all the gods, to make all of this just a dream.
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No one's POV:

6 days.

It's 6 days and you still haven't heard anything from Scarlett, and it's making you think, if she's just really challenging you, thinking you would still have a change of mind. You don't really know if your just being desperate on finding her just to sign the papers, or it's just your soft side, wanting to catch a glimpse of her, trying to figure out if she's doing fine or not.

The things that had happened between you and Lizzie are all over now, maybe for you. But in all that, you are done with it, it's all forgotten, you are back to normal again.

So now, you're only problem is Scarlett.

You already called her friends and family, asking where she is, they would catch up on you, and how you're relationship with Scarlett went, but, you pay no mind to them, and give them no answer once they said that they don't know where your wife is.

You already checked the house, but she's not there, not even a trace of her can be seen. You already tried calling her, but unfortunately, you got nothing.

Even though you're all mad, disappointed and upset on everything that's going on, you still can't help but feel worried of where she might have gone. If ever she's okay, and doing fine, if ever she's doing something that would definitely make her sick, if ever she's alive or...not.

But, thank god, because all your worries was soon faded away when you got a call from the care taker of the beach she bought, responsing to your message, asking if Scarlett did ever went there.

The care taker told you that she has, it brought so much relief to your body, but it quickly went to normal as soon as you remembered why you are seeking for her.

You started to drive, not that quick, but not that slow either. And as you drive to the beach, which is 30 minutes from where you are, you can't help but let your self think, and let you mind check of all the things that are happening to your life.

You felt so lost.

You felt as if you're not yourself anymore.

You can't tell if you're just in a one sick of a dream, or this is just the reality that you are afraid from

You can't help but feel as if this is all your fault.

All the thoughts that came through you mind had somehow managed to get through you, as you started to get overwhelmed. You tried to comfort yourself, trying to get all the comfort out of you, wishing that it would calm your nerves that are starting to spike up.

It's all to much that your hands started to shake violently, along with the rain pouring down hard on the floor. Your breathing became ragged, as your vision started to get cloudy.

Thank god, there's a stop light, and it helped you to take a break from driving, then tried to compose yourself, wiping the tears that kept pouring out of your eyes.

You don't really know what you're doing anymore, it's all messed up, you are so messed up. As days gone by, you felt yourself became more dull, as it became more hard for you to pick yourself up piece by piece.

Now, you're here, being very desperate to find your cheater of a wife, trying to get her to sign the stupid divorce paper, as if it will fix everything up. As if it's really what you wanted.

Is it really what you wanted?...

The lights turned green, and once again you're driving through the slippy road, still not calming down.

Do you really want to break up with Scarlett? After all those years?...

The cars passed by from your window, along with the tress that are swaying by. You drive with shaky hands, and heavy breathing. You drive with your vision becoming double, as you felt yourself fall into a panic attack.

Is this really all you fault? Maybe it is...or you're just really aren't enough.

You continued to drive, getting to lost in your thoughts, you're too lost that you can't feel like yourself anymore. The sounds that came through your ear became just a ringing sound, as your foot unconsciously stepped down all the way through the pedal, making your car go as fast as possible.

You already had gone through this things before. Maybe, you're the one who's just really the problem. You always caused the one's who tried to love you with so many problems.

Tears started to pour out of your eyes harshly, as your breathing became more heavier, you chest vigorously moving up and down, as you let out so many broken sobs.

Maybe, you're just not deserving to be love by someone for a lifetime.

All you want is to become numb, from the pain and all. You don't want to feel something anymore. It's all your fault, it's all on you, not them, you're the one who's just trying to fit in to the normal life of a human being, trying to seek for a true love that would last forever.

But, maybe, it's just not written on your faith.

The words, the promises that came out of Scarlett's mouth that night when you were asleep, it's all burned in your head. The way she pleads, and took an oath on having and getting you back, it made you want to believe her, but somehow, the anger and sadness always win.

And you hate it, especially the pain.

Maybe, for the pain to go away, you should go first.

The speed of your car didn't go unnoticed by the traffic patrollers, because as soon as they saw you're car, speeding away like you're in a some kind of race, they immediately took action to it. But, you? You can't hear a sound, it's all ringing.

They are already near you, beside you, even. They're shouting, beeping, and all, but the driver of their car quickly stepped on the break as he saw a massive truck driving towards you, it's not that fast, but it's not that slow either.

It's impact was enough to bring the car you're in, flying and tumbling to the other side of the road.

It's enough to bring you into the darkness.