The Story Of Us

Dating Game

Y/n's POV:

"What happened earlier? You know... Did I do something?" Scarlett asked as we sit side by side on the sand, watching the sunset here at our beach while eating ice cream.

The atmosphere is peaceful, so peaceful and calming, it makes me want to sleep, wrapped up in her arms, the cold breeze and the quiet waves hitting our skin and ears. Under the yellowish orange, with some sparks of violet, blue and pink colored sky, until it became dark and full of bright stars, glimmering above us as we watch it until our eyes closed.

I turned to her, I watched as she licked her ice cream, before I look down at mine, taking a deep breath before starting to speak.

"It's... stupid." I shook my head, before taking a small bite of my ice cream, and then looking at her, my eyes speaking with no want to talk about my attitude earlier.

"Come on..." She bumped me with her shoulder meeting mine. "Tell me, Y/n. It's okay, I understand whatever it is. Promise." She finishes.

"It's just... when I told you that I thought you left me... again." I rolled my eyes, the end of my words became a crusty whine. "You... you said that, you wouldn't leave me unnoticed if you leave, and... I don't know, I guess I just got disappointed and all, you know. At the thought of... you leaving me- us, when..." My words trailed off as I gaze at my melting ice cream.

"When?" She asked, making my head whipped to turn to her.

I gaze at her face, it's knowingly looking at me, and I know, deep down, she already have an idea about what will my next words be.

"When... Avery is already starting- well, is already comfortable and got used to you. And you know, I don't like when my baby cries and gets upset." I playfully chuckled, but the disappointment in her eyes didn't go unnoticed.

Maybe, it's because I used Avery to hide what my real feelings are. Again. But, still, she nodded in understanding.

Silence eloped us, and started finishing our ice cream again. But, even in the silence, I can hear the loudest sound of nothing between us. Even though I'm looking ahead, I can feel her gaze on me as she think and try not to hesitate on what she's about to say, what she wants to say.

I was scared, a little, but I want her to tell me that she knows what really sent me off earlier, because I know that she knows. She always do, even in my worst lies, she always sees the truth in me.

Even in my mistakes, she always sees and choose to see the best of me.

I wished, partly, that with the mistake she did years ago I saw the best of her in that time. But, it was all too much.

Too much anger, hatred and disappointment.

Not for her, fully, but to myself too.

I know, it is partly my fault, well maybe, and I know that I can't always blame her for everything. Especially now that....

"I won't." She said straightly, but her voice was soft, as if she's talking to a baby.

My head whipped around to look at her confusedly, my brows furrowed together.

"Huh?" It was quiet, I almost didn't heard it as the sound my thumping heart is more louder than my voice, making me think if she's also hearing it too.

As I gaze into her eyes, I see it again.

I see all of it again.

It's like looking back to the past, to our very firsts.

"I won't leave you. I won't ever leave you again." She tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear, making me realize that her ice cream is now long gone.

Mine's already just the cone, half of it. So, I wouldn't really mind throwing it away if we're gonna have a make out session right here, right now.

"I owe you everything. Both of you and Avery. Leaving you again is the last thing that I would wish and think to do. So, please..." She shuffle a little closer to me, and a little more, and a little more until we're already impossibly close enough to one another.

Impossibly close.

"Please..." She almost sounds like she's pleading, and she is. She actually is. She's begging. "If you can forgive me... Please, try and learn how to not think about me leaving you in any possible time, because there's no way in hell I would do that." That touch my heart, I felt it.

Then, the water works starts. With blurred vision, caused by tears, I look at her most genuine eyes. It's almost the same one that she used for the very first time, but now, it's even more... powerful.

I don't know how to explain it, but there's just something so different about the way she's looking at me right now. It's different, but very so familiar at the same time. So old, but so new. So nostalgic and feels so euphoric inside, that the butterflies she once put in my stomach, then burned alive, reincarnated once again.

But, this time.

This time, they are much more beautiful with big and much more colorful wings. Now, they are flying freely in my stomach with so much passion as if they are seeing how much beautiful they are.

With both of her hands on both sides of my face, she brushed a lone tear that streamed down on it. And then, again, she said those words that would forever make my heart pound out of my chest.

"I love you, Y/n. Please... Please, believe me- I want you to believe me- i need you to believe me. I just... I just need you to believe me." The last words sounded so meek and weak, she pleads so hopeless.

She pulled me in her arms, wrapping me in her strong arms, where I would always find myself falling into. In her arms that I would proudly present as my very own version of home. In her arms where I know that I will always be safe. In her arms where I always see myself running into, even if she hurt me so many more times.

But, now, I know she won't.

I can freely, confidently, and surely say, that she won't ever, ever gonna leave me again.

She won't gonna leave us.

No one's gonna leave between us.

She tighten her hug around me while sobbing and pleading. I can hear so much guilt in her voice, maybe because of the another trauma she had put me through, making it so hard for me to believe in any words that would roll off her tounge, acting like believing to her even just a little is a unforgivable and forbidden sin.

But all that faded away, all the doubt, the feeling of being afraid faded all at once when I felt her put a searing and lingering kiss on my lips. As if all the words she wanted to say will get to me but connecting our lips with a burning kiss.

And, I think it did.

It successfully did.

Once again, I found myself saying those words to her again after she pull away, looking at my face, scanning it as if she's memorizing every bits of its part.

"I love you too, Scarlett. I believe you. I promise, I believe you now."

Shock filled her expression, a wide smile spreading across her face as her eyes cried with so much joy. Saying thay feels so, once again, new, but now, it feels so right to say it that it ever did. It felt so easy that it ever did in the past.

"Oh god, I love you!" Once again, I was brought in her arms, squeezing me so tight that I almost felt so hard to breath, but I let her, wrapping my arms around her neck as both stand, well, she did almost all the work, carrying me as if I'm weightless, making me let out a tiny squeal and giggle.

"Gosh, oh my god, I love you so much. Fuck, fuck, fuck..." In the very second she set me down, her lips met mine again, before pulling away with red face but the most genuine happy face I have ever seen her wear.

"Please, oh gosh, fuck, please, please, say it again. Please, Y/n, just- just one more time. Please, say it again." I can see what she means when she said to me that she's so inlove with me, because now, she's acting so insane, but I didn't mind, that's one of the way why I love her.

I love her.

"I love you, Scarlett."