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Hand-Me-Down

I'm back again, with another angsty songfic for you guys.

TW! Feelings of abandonment! Mentions of potential breakdowns!

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~(Y/N)'s POV~

I hum softly to myself, walking back to camp with my haul from the village, seeing Geralt and Yennefer smiling and laughing with each other.

Have you ever felt so lost within?

Like you don't even belong in your own skin

Like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere

'Cause no one cares

My smile fell and I set the bags down quietly next to Geralt's tent, climbing into my own and laying down on my cot. I took a few deep breaths, trying to calm myself down before I had a full on breakdown.

So many nights I lie awake

Wondering why nobody stays

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I open up, I get replaced

Like who I am is a mistake

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I've been running on this lonely road

But no matter where I go

I'm never home

I finally got my emotions in check before walking out of the tent, seeing that Roach was gone as was her rider. I grab my tack and fasten it on my horse, shushing him before I packed a bag, not bothering with a note, seeing as Geralt probably wouldn't even know I'm gone. I mount my horse and start towards the next town.

Some days I'd rather be anyone but who I am

Just an afterthought that no one cares to understand

Wish I could see it in myself, why I'm impossible to love

Why I'm not enough

I sigh, halfway to Kaedwen, my mind racing as I thought about how much fun Geralt and I had on our trips, and how he'd have the same amount or possibly even more with Yennefer. She was much more beautiful than me anyways...

So many nights I lie awake

Wondering why nobody stays

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I open up, I get replaced

Like who I am is a mistake

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I've been running on this lonely road

But no matter where I go

Months passed after I settled in Kaedwen, picking up a job in the local tavern to support myself.

It was a normal day at the tavern, leaning towards closing time. Everything was running smoothly, until he walked in. I frown, seeing the white-haired witcher walking in. Hopefully I wasn't too recognizable, seeing as since he last saw me I had gotten more muscle mass and had shaved my hair. The witcher seated himself in a booth, beckoning me over to him. I walk up to his table.

"What can I get you today sir?" I ask, speaking in a slightly higher register to disguise my voice from him.

Do I choose denial?

Embrace this downward spiral?

It gets so hard to face the truth

When your reality's a noose

What good's survival

When everything feels final?

There's nothing quite like this abuse

Of feeling like I have no use

Stuck in a life no one would choose

Geralt looked at me, his brow furrowed.

"(Y/N)?" He asks, his gruff voice like music to my ears.

"Who's (Y/N)? My name is Kaytlin." I say, still in my higher voice.

"(Y/N), I know it's you." Geralt says. I sigh.

"What can I get you today Geralt?" I ask.

"You... I need you back..." He says, looking into my eyes with his golden ones.

"Why? Did you dump Yennefer along the way too? Who's your new lady friend? And where is she?"

"Not funny... Yen and I had some issues along the way... hunting with her isn't the same."

So many nights I lie awake

Wondering why nobody stays

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I open up, I get replaced

Like who I am is a mistake

I'm just a hand-me-down

I'm just a hand-me-down

I've been running on this lonely road

But no matter where I go

I'm never home

"No, Geralt... I'm not gonna be the one you pick up and drop over and over again... this is the second time. You always seem to run back to me. I'm done Geralt..."

"(Y/N)..."

"No Geralt... I'm not gonna be your hand-me-down anymore. Picking up after your messes with your other friends after you have spats. I'm no longer chained to you and I've felt better now than I ever have before. Goodbye Geralt of Rivia... I'll find you a new waitress." I say, walking off.

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Another songfic based around a Citizen Soldier song! This one is Hand Me Down. I know it's a little short. I'm running out of steam today.

Luv Y'all,
Aisy Daisy