What is life? || Jinkook

chapter 38

Hobi:-

Kookie !! let us  cuddle , come here

Jk:-

If your gf sees us like this , she will slap you for sure

Hobi:-

Hobi tightens his grip on Jungkook's waist and said ,

Now you don't need to panic , I'm with you , now tell me why you run from the concert that day ?

Jk:-

Jungkook looks at hobi, inhales and exhales deeply , hides his head in hobi's chest and said ;

That day me and seokjin played the badminton and we won, and out of excitement we hugged each other,

and I felt a strange feeling in my heart but I i tried my best to ignore it and then at the musical festival he sings a song, he was singing for the entire crowd,

but I feels like he sang that song for me, his eyes were at me the whole , even jimin told me that jin was singing looking at you, that song , it's melody , and jin's voice with his darting eyes on me ,

at the end of the concert he winks at me too , after all these things, my heart can't take it anymore , idk what you call this as butterflies or what but I feel them , I feel those butterflies ,

I decided that I can't stay near jin anymore, he is dangerous for me , for my health, I don't want to feel any kind of feeling for anybody and specially for someone like jin, he is rich,  handsome has a line of people for him, why would he think abt someone like me ,

I know at that time that he was just messing with me , so I ran to save my heart, I ran without thinking,  and I came into sense when I stopped  at the park,  my legs were aching for all the running, so I sat down , and dialed your number and after what happens you know..

Hobi:-

Hobi was patting Jungkook's head and caressing Jungkook's cheek all the while jungkook was telling him the behind story ..

He then said;

Kookie!!   You know,  if you are going through something that is uncomfortable or hard - you often have to decide between allowing yourself to dive into those emotions, or allowing yourself to numb them.

And, a lot of human beings choose to numb their experience.

A lot of people  tell themselves that it is all too much, that is all too inconvenient, to deal with..

And it is often not their fault. In a world that has given us so much pain ,  We  try to protect ourselves from pain,

but kookie , I have learned one thing ,  and that  is ..

that pain  also demands to be felt. It will show up in other ways if we do not deal with it.

So, the greatest thing you can do when you are dealing with pain, or hardship, or change,  is to feel it.

Please, do not run from your feeling. Run towards it. Run within yourself. Meditate. Get to know your mind, your heart, your soul.

Trace your fingers over your wounds. Get to know the parts of yourself that you have hidden from the light.

Heal yourself from the inside.

You know the wounds your father gives to your mom, they are just engraved in you and you see and judge every other person as that person is your father, or will turn out to be like your father..