What is life? || Jinkook

Chapter 56

Jungkook slowly opens his eyes, but the bright light in the room was making it difficult for him

Jungkook places the back of his hand over his eyes , opens them and saw jin standing in front of him , looking at him with concerning eyes

Jungkool feels pain deep inside his heart after looking at jin, his eyes started filling with tears , and jungkook thought;

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You wanted to fall me in your trap, and I fall, you wanted me to fall in love with you, and here I'm madly in love with you, but you never loved me , all this time,  all this time , when you held my hand , you looked at me , you kissed me , all this was planned?

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Jungkook tries to get up from his laying position when jin came to help him sit up, but jungkook pushed him , and said;

No ! NO!

(Jungkook covers his ears with his hands while saying this)

Don't touch me

Don't touch me

You! You!

S-stay away from me

Jin:-

Jungkook , listen

Jk:-

No !

It's enough *starts crying **

Jin:-

Don't cry please , my heart is hurting seeing you like this , and tries to wipe Jungkook's tears , but jungkook pushes his hand again,

please jungkook listen ..

Jk:-

Why

Why me crying hurting your heart ?

Isn't this what you want ?

Didn't you want me in this state?

I thought you loved me , but all this was your plan ?

Jin:-

Yes ! I wanted this,  but not now

Jk:-

J-just  shut up !

You knw what jin !

I wish I could go back to those days where I hate you

I wish I-I could hurt you the way you hurted me , but I-I can't do this , even if I had the chance , I will never do this with you , because I love you truly

But you can't understand this , I'm grateful to namjoon, I get to knw about your plan early..

You know jin!

I promised myself that I will never love someone, I will never make myself weak for someone , I will never allow anybody to enter in my heart , but for you , I break that promise , I allowed you enter my heart, I allowed you to kiss me , I allowed you take control over my heart , but this is what you did with me

I knew this that we are the opposite poles of the magnet , but still , I allowed myself to fall in once , I'm regretting this , I'm regretting listening my heart, I'm regretting loving you jin ,I'm regretting

Jungkook said this ,wear his shoes, and said;

I will pay you back the money you spent on me today and opens the door of the room and exit the room, leaving jin alone in the room

Jin:-

Jungkook!!

Please don't go, don't talk with me , but please let me take you home

Your condition is not good , please let me take you home?

Jk:-

I don't trust you anymore jin, what if you  rape me,  or you kill me ? I don't want to go with you anywhere ..

Jin:

Tears starts falling from jin's eyes and he saw jungkook taking a taxi

Jin follows the taxi , and after making sure that jungkook is home now ..

He  starts the car again, not knowing where to go

At Jungkook's home

His mom and sister were not home, so he goes straight towards his room, locked the door of the room, sits while resting his back on the closed door, his knees drawn close to his chest and starts crying...

(Jungkook thoughts)

You filled me with lies

Making me think, why me

Is this fair?

No! It isn't fair

I knw we were an odd pair

But everything felt right with you being my side

You made me laugh

You peeled my mask

The way you held me

when I was scared

I thought you truly cared

I was completely unprepared

for the damage you would cause

But you , you took advantage of my soul

And left a bleeding hole

And now

I'm not okay

My heart is in tangles

My mind is a mess

I'm drowning in a  sea

I created on your lies

♡♡♡

09.07.22

Ik you all didn't like this update😞

(I always listens to Autumn outside the post ,cover by jin

Whenever I write this book, Idk why, but I can't write if I'm not listening to that song hehhe that's a TMI  I guess)