In The Wilderness

Chapter 9: Take me. Ruin me.

Savannah

I gave in. I pulled him to my bed.

Although I don't just want to watch him. I want to be the one to do it.

He was moaning in my ear habang tinataas baba ko ang aking kamay sa kanyang pagkalalaki. I can't see it since the room is dark, but I can feel how big it is. Hindi siya magkasya sa kamay ko. Tinataas baba ko ang aking palad habang gutom na gutom niyang sinisipsip ang tuktok ng aking dibdib.

When I opened my eyes, Silas was not lying beside me.

I was drenched in sweat and my vagina was throbbing and wet.

Shît!

Agad akong napaupo mula sa pagkakahiga. Kumakabog ang aking dibdib at sobrang init ng aking katawan!

"Oh, my god." Hindi ko makapaniwalang bulong sa aking sarili.

I don't usually cuss too much but what the fückery-fück just happened?! There is no way that I just had a dream about Silas!

Agad akong tumayo at nagtungo sa banyo. Mabilis kong pinihit ang gripo at nagipon ng tubig sa aking palad. I splashed my face with cold water, when I looked in the mirror in front of me. My face is no longer flushed but my mouth is parted and I can see my nipples poking through the white shirt.

"Sav, a couple more days. Utang na loob." I whispered to myself.

In a couple of days, I am pretty sure magiging okay na ang daanan pababa sa cabin. Until then, I have to keep my shît together. I have to steer clear away from Silas.

Because yes, it's official na séxually attracted ako sa kanya.

Pero hindi ako pwedeng bumigay sa kanya.

Hindi dahil toxic siya kagaya ni Rence, dahil una sa lahat wala sa kalingkingan ni Silas si Rence. He will never be as good as Silas.

He's not toxic and he's not a boy.

Silas is a man, and very...... intense.

He came to me like a bull that rampaged into a glass store. He did not necessarily destroy me, it's just that Silas shook my world in a span of a couple of days.

And as a girl who never had an experience before, I am legit scared of his size. He will literally rip me and I don't think I am ready for that.

At higit sa lahat, Silas is like a caveman with some of his principles. I remember when he said that once he touches me in a certain way, I will be his. 

The feminist part of me is shaking her head right now. Subalit hindi ko rin maiwasang mapalunok sa ideya na iyon.

I let out a sigh.

I have to get the heck away from here as soon as I can.

Before I stepped out of the room, I made sure that I am wearing a bra this time, and that I look anything but a woman who just had a séx dream about the person she isn't supposed to be having a dream about, to begin with.

Subalit oras na makalabas ako sa kwarto ay parang gusto ko na agad bumalik sa loob dahil ang bumungad sa akin ay ang pawisang nagpu-push up na si Silas.

Hindi ko maiwasang kagatin sandali ang loob ng aking pisngi dahil putok na putok ang kanyang mga masel sa braso. His hair is wet with sweat and I can see how the muscles in his hardback are rippling.

He's just about to go up when I stepped out of the room. He flashed me a smile like  I didn't just find out about his oil last night.

Napalunok ako. Leche, it's still snowing outside, but why the hell do I feel hot?!