As I stare at my window, with the moon shining so bright, along with the cold yet warm breeze, my heart is beating so loud. Not knowing the real emotions inside my head.
Can I court you?
Four words. Just four words are enough to make my heart crazy. I don't know what to reply. Obviously, he was the first person who asked me that thing.
Sanay na ako sa presensya ni Zen, and my day isn't complete without a word from him. Pero kahit anong gawin ko, nandoon pa rin 'yung pakiramdam na nauubos ang sasabihin ko sa kanya lalo na kapag na-o-off guard ako.
I'm indecisive, kahit sigurado ako sa isasagot ko sa kanya, hindi ko agad alam ang sasabihin.
I started typing a message just to delete it. Alam kong kanina pa nakikita ni Zen ang salitang 'typing' sa conversation namin kaya mas lalo akong nataranta.
I took a deep breath before typing a message.
Cresia Faith Aragon:
I'm not easy to be with, Zen. I have a lot of issues, if you think you already saw the worst in me, then think again. I don't want to hurt you just because of my mess. I'm indecisive. I'm messy.
Cresia Faith Aragon:
But being with you is a solace.
That's not the straight answer but I know he get that.
After talking to him, I opened his gift. Napangiti ako nang makita ko ang isang kulay black na hoodie, may crescent moon sa bandang dibdib kung saan nakatapat ang puso natin. Mas malaki 'yon kumpara sa katawan ko kaya mas nagustuhan ko.
The next day is another day to spend with my girl friends. Of course, walang Philomena Isle dahil hindi pa nagpaparamdam sa'min ang gaga. Sinundo ako ni Reanne sa bahay kinaumagahan at sabay na nagpunta kila Xy.
Dahil walang Phillie, we decided to pay her a visit. Kung hindi pa kami gagawa ng paraan, baka hindi na namin makita ang babae dahil laging walang paramdam— ni isang tuldok sa chat hindi magawa ng bruha.
We catch up, more like, pandedemonyo sa isa't isa. We didn't bring up the event yesterday, she said sorry and I said that's fine. The important thing is, she's still spending a little time for us. Ang tagal na n'ong huling usap namin pero gano'n pa rin naman, pademonyohan lang.
"Hoy, Sia, sorry talaga! Sabi ko pa naman pupunta ako," si Phillie, nakaakbay sa'kin habang naglalakad kami palapit sa tricycle na sinakyan namin papunta sa kanila.
"Okay nga lang, tanggap kong ghoster ka." sabi ko saka tumawa. Lahat naman kami mag-eenroll ghosting phase kaya wala lang sa'kin. We're growing up but not apart, I guess. We just have to grow up individually, but the bond is still there.
"Kailan kayo magpapa-enroll, mga mare?" tanong ni Ram sa'min habang magkakausap kami sa video call.
Wala naman kaming ginagawa kundi manuod ng mga random videos at lyric video sa facebook.
"Sa May 10, Brad. Sabay kami ni Sia," sabi ni Prince, ako naman ay nakatahimik lang habang nagchachat kay Xy at Zen. Mga kachismisan ko.
Zen Mikel Cruz:
It's already 11 pm, go get some sleep.
Cresia Faith Aragon:
It's just 11 pm, Cruz. Maaga pa lol.
Cresia Faith Aragon:
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Look At Me
Teen Fiction'I dare you.. to look at me, just me.. and be with me..' Dare Series #1: Look At Me
