Hating You to Love Me

14. Alex

I could feel my pulse rise with her every move. Ashley's body was right next to mine. I couldn't fall asleep like this but I also couldn't let her go. She was fast asleep next to me. I loosened my grip long ago when I knew she had fallen asleep. But that was when I felt her stir. She turned to look at me and I instantly shut my eyes.

My heart almost skipped a beat. I tried to breath in deeper and better. She pulled away and I knew what was about to happen. Just as she got off the bed and walked for the door, I instantly jumped out of bed catching her wrist again. She groaned. "Fuck you! Why aren't you asleep!" She hissed as I pulled her with me towards the bed. This time I made sure to keep a safe distance.

"Stop it Ashley, I won't let you go out of this room tonight and that's final. Please for fuck's sake sleep." I told her as I pressed my temples with the other hand. She sulked but I pinned her down, covering her with the duvet. I laid next to her, still holding onto her wrist before I once again pulled her in the same old position. She turned around to face me. I felt her breath on my neck and I looked down. She was looking up at me with a weird look.

"This is just another excuse of yours to be close to me Alex. Admit it." She said with a smirk. I knew exactly what she was doing, provoking me. I sighed. "Okay." I nodded as I suddenly could her heart heartbeat through her chest. My pulse rose as well. Heat spread through me and I couldn't help it.

I closed my eyes but I felt her lips brush my chest as she snuggled her head against it. I stiffened. "What are you doing?" I hissed with my jaw clenched.
"Taking advantage of the situation." She said and I could sense the smile she had on her lips. I wished I could throw her out of the room or just let her go. I didn't have the keys to my room or else I would have locked her inside!

"Stop being a bitch. I swear to god I would..." I clenched my fists behind her back. And that was when I realised the waist of hers was so thin, my hands were so casually spread across her body. I gulped. Fuck me! What did I need to do? It felt awful all of a sudden, the idea of me holding her from leaving.

"You would what?" She looked up again brushing her lips on my neck. I looked down and her lips were just a mere inch away from mine. I could feel her breath and mine. This was not going to happen again and if it would, It would go all the way in.

She kept staring at me as her breath brushed my face. I inhaled her peachy scent. "Fuck you." I finally said it and we both knew I meant it. My eyes again going back to her lips and she licked them lightly. Fuck. I leaned forward a little and she instantly ducked her head. Finally.

She hit my chest with her fist so hard that I couldn't help but groan. "It could have been your balls and my knee, you better not." She said and I couldn't help but smile trying to hold my laugh.

"And it could have been you on your knees and my balls. Shut the fuck up and sleep." I smirked having the last argument but the thought of her on her knees. A single thought did something so crazy to me and I should not have thought of it. She hissed against me. "I won't leave, let go of me." She said as she once again tried to push me away.

"I don't trust you." I seriously didn't. Sleeping so close to her was a torture for myself too. I too wanted to get away from her.

***

The next thing I remember was waking up to an empty bed. Ashley was again in the bathroom taking her time to shower. I couldn't help but think of what happened the day before and what could happen that day. I knew one thing for sure, I had to convince her to act normal. Just as I looked at the wall clock, I realised I had to pick Elena from the airport.

I grunted as I got up and dialled her number and it wasn't going through. I was late, so late. Ashley stepped out of the shower in her robe, it barely covered her thighs and revealed her cleavage. She didn't even look at me and headed straight for the closet. Why did I care?