My slice of life

nostalgia cookie

We're in autumn.
This is the season of chilling, dancing in the rain, walking on soft leaves fallen down from the trees. Remember
It's time to be nostalgic
crying, laying down
nothing else around but a deep full silence
Full of noises and soft sounds
I wanna sing
feel cold then to be heated up
I wanna wear oversized sweaters and t-shirt
wear only cool colors, no black no white only
but feeling free to feel alright.
this is my favorite season
and it's gonna be as always
quiet
softly noisy
but no more sound no more flashlights
only the dark and the ivory sweet
being just cool
getting to be fun
remembering the past year and being nostalgic
remind me what i've been through
tell me who you are
tell me where I am
I wanna learn once again how to see
I miss you
miss the whole world
because i'm stuck somewhere else
in an ice freezing world
Obliterate all what you can remember
you're an angel
an I don't wanna be erased from your memories
please keep me
It's not me
I didn't
The red switch is very dangerous
but I'll forget about it
and only pour my teardrops
on the spider lilies
in the back of my garden
flowering in your mind
blossoming in autumn
I wanna eat some cookies
With a poor lonely chocolate
whether it's pink brown or orange
I wanna taste the flavors of this season
I deeply miss my wings
I wanna fly
I wanna fall
who is that looking at me from the top
of the sky
these are the lyrics
for a new song to the siren
I wanna read
go back in time
write
be something maybe
all these shadowy words
reminding me how it was
how it felt
hajimete oboeta
for the first time
I remembered all this
I wanna set my life in fire
and go away
with a ghostly flotting line of ashes behind me
slowly falling from the sky
like a carbon snow
I wanna read gory novels
short and long ones
Wanna forget about the french
Read only in english
Say goodbye to my past life
and remember it in the same time
walk while talking about nothing
having stupid plans
drawing
inktober
that's fun
or not
who cares
I love to drink hot chocolate
think about you
saying hello, have a good day everyday
listen to music
working again on my playlists
making gifts for my friends
planning on coming to see everyone
trying to convince my parents
searching how to get money for the train
sewing
having english lessons
Verbs in -ing
It's autumn
Daisies on your nightstand
I blossom in the moonlight
screw eyes
Glacial with the blue ice
thinking about them and you and all
remembering all the times of my life
when I watched anime in VF but loved it though
when I watched Your lie in April and Tokyo Ghoul
when I ate less and less because of Tokyo Ghoul
when I started watching it in VO and love even more
when I listened to nightcore after reading one depressing fanfic
when I started to love quotes
when I danced every night in my room on sad music
when I was absolutely motivated about writing a manga
when I imagined gay couples in my school and wrote about them with a friend
when I discovered cosplay
when I got to want to do so
when I watched Elfen lied and Wonder egg priority
when I watched Helluva Boss
when I wanted to make up like them
when I discovered Vocaloids
when I was depressed
when I was only happy within one moment twice a week
when I decided my mood of the days and that it worked only for two months
when I had to end the year even after all what happened
even after I loved them all
even after it was not once upon a December
Not only in winter and autumn
there are these people that I miss so hard
these ones, I'll never forget about them
because we're in autumn
and it's a nostalgic season
it's time to dance in the rain
and i would have liked everyone to hear the same music as me
and see the same lights in the sky as me
and most of all
to always remember
that during this season
when the brown leaves fall
It's time to look around
time to stop dreaming
please give a closer look
and maybe remember me
I'm not so close
but I hope you know
I'm not so far

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きらりん