I knew a girl when I was small
Someone who used to be my rock
Someone I could trust without having to think twice
Someone who I thought would be there til the end
Life had other plans
She turned her back and forgot about me
We say hello every now and again
But from best friends to strangers
The pain she caused has yet to go away
When I grew up a bit a boy came in to my life
He had always been a background character in my eyes or at least to me
I didn't know a few years ago that he would be my best friend
That he would be a person who I can trust
Then one day he hurt me too
He said he was sorry but u felt like I forced him too
Some of the words he would say would hurt me
Even after this I still fought for him
But I must admit
I am tired of fighting for something that I hope doesn't die
But along the way my heart will give out as I die a little more each day
Another boy who had always been there came into the picture again
I really liked him
But when I wrote a letter to him
It felt like my whole world crumbled
When I cried myself to sleep that night
Hopeing that no one could hear me
All the memories flooded through my mind all at once and I fell apart
The pain is only replaced by another person who hurts me
The pain is a reason who the difficulty to trust
Even tho the pain is strong right now
I will plast on that fake smile that I hope no one can see through
Put up my mask to protect me from people like all these people too
Hey
So I was thinking about making this fit into a one shot. But I couldn't. This is about three people in my life who I deeply care for and my feelings towards the situation.
Sorry about it. I know it isn't good but I needed to get it out of me.
Anyway I hope you stay safe and take care of yourselves.
I will post a proper one shot tomorrow
