The Great War - A Tarlos Love story

The lonely ones ch.13

Tw//rape //self-harm // sewer slide thoughts

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This is for the lonely ones
The ones who go to bed and think they got no one

Tk thought it was over that all his pain that it was over but now his world was shattered "you told me it was closed ." Tk said putting a file on the counter in front of Carlos " Tk - look just hear me out ." Carlos said " you knew .. you knew it was still open .." tk said biting his lower lip

" just sit down please ." Carlos said putting his hand on Tk's arm " don't touch me ." Tk said moving away " I didn't tell you because it wasn't that serious until now ." Carlos said, " what do you mean ?" Tk asked, " they might release Alex if you don't give them what they need ." Carlos said looking at tk " you told me it was over ." Tk said swallowing deeply Carlos could see as the tears flooded in his eyes " I'm sorry I lied okay but if you don't do what they need they will release him and you won't be safe ." Carlos said

The shy kid at the playground
The runaways on greyhounds

" what do they need ." Tk said wiping his eyes with his sweatshirt " a proper statement and a rape kit ." Carlos said looking at tk " they can only keep him convicted for so long with so little information." Carlos said as tk kept backing himself further into the wall " You lied you said it was over ." Tk said, " I'm sorry I'm so sorry too." Carlos said reaching out for tk " don't touch me ." Tk said heading towards the front door grabbing his coat " tk where are you going." Carlos said, " what do you care ." Tk said wiping his face " Cause I care about you ." Carlos said, " if you cared about me you would have told me ." Tk chocked out his words

This is for the lonely ones
The ones who always wonder where their friends have gone
The boy who can't stop crying
The girl who gave up trying

Tk felt like the ceiling wouldn't stop spinning it seemed as if the process went on forever they kept swabbing him looking for tearing damaged scar tissue " just take some deep breaths okay ." The woman said, " it will be over soon ." The lady said

If you were to tell tk this is how his day would be going that he's been getting a rape kit done which was more traumatic than you would think he felt numb almost like he wasn't there like he was a ghost-like something was wrong with him and he couldn't figure it out

This is for the lonely ones
The lonely ones

"Sir you're done." The lady said, " you can get dressed ." The woman said giving tk a soft smile
In a way that they would just let Alex out maybe if he was lucky Alex would just kill him

Tk went back to his dads " son you okay ?" His dad asked from the kitchen tk paused for a second to think about the question

"Can I have a hug ?" Tk choked out As tears fell down his cheeks Owen didn't have to say anything he just wrapped his arms around his son " I'm sorry ." Tk cried " you didn't do anything wrong ." Owen said rubbing Tk's back

I know the voice inside your head saying you're never good enough
The times you stay in bed because it's too hard to get up
The friends who disappear when things just get a bit too rough
Time to make it stop

Tk went to his room sitting on his floor getting a kit from under his nightstand out filled with blades and aftercare materials tk slid his pants down revealing his thigh tk rested his head on the side of his mattress bringing the blade to his leg he winced at the pain He made king thin slices along watching as the blooded bubbled in the different places

He just felt so lonely so alone he didn't wanna be here he didn't wanna do that stupid rape kit he didn't want to give a statement to the police

Opened his door Carlos stood there looking at him with the blade to his leg " I'm sorry .." tk mumbled as Carlos closed the door behind him

This is for the lonely ones
The ones who go to bed and think they got no one
The shy kid at the playground
The runaways on greyhounds

Carlos knelt by tk taking the blade in his hand " I'm so sorry Carlos .." tk cried into Carlos's chest But Carlos just rubbed Tk's back

This is for the lonely ones
The ones who always wonder where their friends have gone

Carlos took care of Tk's cuts before getting him in bed " I did the kit .." tk said " the rape kit .." tk mumbled Carlos looked down at tk Who was tracing little patterns on Carlos's chest " I gave my statement to ." Tk said, " I'm proud of you baby ." Carlos said, " I'm sorry that you had to ." Carlos said placing a kiss on Tk's head " I wanna kill myself .." tk mumbled as he starred into space

The boy who can't stop crying
The girl who gave up trying
This is for the lonely ones

Carlos looked over at tk before hugging him a little tighter a tear or two fell into Tk's hair " I'm here okay ?" Carlos said, " I just feel so alone ." Tk said, " I'm tired of it ." Tk said

The lonely ones
Yeah, I am just like you
I have been there too

Owen came and peaked in a little later that night Tk's head was in Carlos's chest Carlos gave Owen a little frown Owen looked at the nightstand there sat multiple blades two with fresh blood on them and Tk's kit open on the ground Owen frowned in return